I had been so intrigued by the thought of one's soul leaving their physical body to travel the unknown. Certainly a brave act if it was achieved when you were willing. All the doubts that had circled my mind, when I was contemplating whether to attempt astral projection left me dizzy. When I had done enough research to convince me, I was determined.
I laid down, tried to relax. Breathe. Closed my hopeful eyes. Then I began the steps I had slathered together from all the "best" ways to astral project easily. I began relaxing my body starting with my toes and up. I tried to imagine my body heavy. So maybe if I tried to become light and floating, then my astral body would be lifted out. The heavier I imagined I grew restless. Then when I was going to "become light" it became a constant fight. Like I felt progress then complete failure.
After a while of this I felt tingling. Then very soon after, this intense rocking sensation. Like my soul was in a crate on a boat, rocking back and forth, fast and smooth and uneven. "What's going on?" I'm thinking. I was sure this was a good sign. But the only time I got this rocking sensation was when I breathed weird like. Holding for a while and else I can't remember. I tried to leave my body but no results no matter how hard I tried. I have never been successful at astral projection. But there for a while, almost all the times I had had that sensation. My whole body rocking back and forth, but it felt good, made me wonder what I was on (haha).
After giving up on trying to astral project for about two weeks, I was at a friend's house and we tried together. I tried a new method, hoping for success but I almost had a heart attack when a, well kind of a voice, a presence, feeling these words taunting me "no, you can't do it, you never will" it gave me such a fright, I didn't know what to do with myself but I just decided to push it off. Thinking do prick of a spirit was messing with me. That I just was unlucky. I insisted that my friend and I go and try in her bedroom upstairs. But when I tried again, it was many jumbled voices which were indistinctive.
Should I be scared? Was I close to astral projection? How can I overcome my fears? What's an easier way to successfully astral project? But mostly I would like feedback on the rocking sensations. Thank you so much for reading.