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Flashes In My Head Of Who Is There


How do I begin this? I will share with you the experiences I've had throughout my life thus far, I am 31 years old, and hopefully someone will be able to validate or confirm what I think is happening.

As a young child of 9 or 10 I was sitting on the stairs and I heard a man's voice call my name three times. My father was not home, only my mother and I. I didn't respond, I just thought it was odd. As a teenager, I would see fleeting images in my house, as if someone walked by my room and I saw them out of the corner of my eye. My radio would turn on and off by itself, as would the lights in my room. And I always ran up the stairs in that house to the second floor because every time I would step foot on them I had the feeling that someone was chasing me. These experiences continued until I left the house and went to college. In college I laid down on my bed to take a nap but I didn't fall asleep. I was somewhere in a "between" state of mind and I felt my body lift off the bed as I scrambled to pull myself down. In mid air, I turned my head to the right and saw a woman standing there, in a sundress. She said, "Renee, everything will be okay." She disappeared and I softly landed back on the bed. I knew this woman was my grandfather's mother, Jenny, although I'd never met her, I'd seen one picture of her in a wedding dress in my grandmother's house. Next time I saw my grandmother, I asked to see another picture of Jenny and she pulled out an old photo from the 20's of Jenny wearing the same sundress I had seen that day in school. After that experience I think I mentally shut down because it was too hard for me to understand or explain.

So, several years went by with no new experiences until I became a nurse and started working in a hospital. I've seen people, not physically, but mentally, standing around. I feel a presence in certain patient's rooms of people that I cannot see. I cannot physically see these people but when I enter a room I see a flash in my head of who is there and what they are doing and I can feel an emotion that is not my own. Does this make any sense? I think the people at work think I'm a nutcase! It doesn't happen all the time, usually around 9pm or later. Sometimes on my way home I feel I'm being followed but no one's around. The hairs on the back of my neck and my arms stand up and whip my head around to see who's there but no one ever is.

So, the point to all of this is, what is going on and how do I control it? The floor that I work on in the hospital is known to be "haunted." There are reports of callbells going off in rooms that don't have patients in them, walkers moving by themselves and people talking in empty rooms- experienced by staff and patients, alike. So, where do I go from here? Should I embrace this? Should I ignore it? Does someone need my help? Why can I see them? I need someone to help me make sense of this. Thanks for listening.

-Renee Bienkowski

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Tenkhee (1 stories) (9 posts)
12 years ago (2012-07-22)
Dear Renee you have a gift,

In some country's it's called shamanism, we're all are shamans in our ways. That relatives you saw earlier in your life they are your close relatives. Your ancestors. I know, everybody will tell you different advise, this and that. But deep inside you have to lesson yourself, what is your inner gut telling you. YOu have the gift of a vision already. Don't be afraid if you see ghosts, spirits. IN Shaman tradition you let your ancestor spirit in your body (Like a movie ghost Sam got in to psychic lady's body) But difference is you cannot let anybody in your body, bless it's your ancestors. Also you need a protection, a lot of people don't know what is protection is, it's some kind a jewelry, or animal stuff, or whatever that you think it's protects you. Deep in there you spirit ancestors are protecting you, but in this world there is so many evil, or evil spirit's that are super strong. SO we all have to come together to fight the evil. Although it's doesn't matter what religion are you, or what your believes, after all most believes are agree there's heaven, and hell, and all do for a good. So respect them all let all the gifted people get connected round the World to fight the Evil. Yes we live in a Fairy tale land, which is you might see stuff that other people can't see, or even fairy tale animals, etc.
Feel your inner instinct, what do they say?
What do you dream?
Or see?

We are the chosen ones, and do your acts o your own way for good, for our Future, for our Planet.
PathR (4 stories) (1274 posts)
12 years ago (2012-07-19)
Yes it is true there is a lot of activity in Hospital,
But it is not only due to the patients whom have died, but the sick patients, Doctors, Jr Doctors, Student nurses, plus grief of family dealing with their loved ones illness. All of these combinations make for a busy place. And it does not help with Hospital, cause staff to do more with less
Staffing and ensuring budgets are met.

With being an empathy. I can only say that the Crown is the Chakra that is most open for an Empathetic.
To be effective one has to distance themself, otherwise as you've stated there is an overload: like vomiting, difficulty breathig, feeling as if one is faint or will faint.
As a healer, health care professional, one must bring healing to oneself, as well as protection.
Because in essence there is an exchange that occures even during a days work for personal whom work in a Hospital.

Bring oneself to a point were we as the healer are in the middle to be a conduit is very important. The only way we should allow ourself to become engrossed would be by channelling a Higher compassion.

Golden yellow reflects the elevation of the mind to a higher sense of consciousness. Also beams out our inner light. Strangly enough this type of light that
The woman mentioned has to do with the Crown Chakra
And with an Empathetic the Crown is normally larger.

The book AnneV mentioned is considered a Bible to
Most healers I have come across.
I've owned it for 15yrs and have only looked at it
A few times. I have a preference for a book!
By: Judith Collins
How to see and Read the Human Aura
(Also specifics are given for: PD, Aids, Cancer patients:indicating what specific chakras and what we
As individuals can feel, see, sense.)

I've done hands on healing for patients in Hospital
Since late 1998, and previously worked on people.
But there is so much to healing I do not know were to start.

If you ever need support or just feed back please
Feel free to click on my User Name and email.

Good journey
AnneV (4 stories) (1064 posts) mod
12 years ago (2012-07-18)
Renee, few people understand that their struggles are disguised blessings; you're far ahead in the game!

You do sound though that you might have a torn chakra, which can make empaths such as yourself 'bleed out' more excessively in times of stress (physically or mentally).

Can I make a suggestion? There is this tremendous author by the name of Barbara Brennon that has a book called "Hands of Healing Light" that I think would take you to a whole new level in every way (career and personally). I myself am not a health practitioner but still re-read it for its excellent material on how our energy bodies work and how our health is affected and so on. I recommend this book a lot but I strongly recommend it for you! I think you can get it for free at a library.

There are no accidents in life. I think you were meant to line up with people that would help open you up. I too was raised Catholic but when I started having out-of-body experiences, accurate premonitions, and so on, I had to broaden my view on life to more align with my ever changing reality. I then went on to pursue a life of energy work, remote viewing, and astral travel (I have other sites as well which you're free to peruse);

And if you ever have any other questions, please feel free to e-mail me at annemoss65 [at] I'm always here to help; it's what I do.

ReneeBienkowski (1 stories) (6 posts)
12 years ago (2012-07-18)
I have also had very spiritual family members tell me that they can see a golden light or aura around me and one that penetrates my chest, as well. They say I am a "destined healer" and I don't even know entirely what that means. My mother's best friend died the year before I applied to nursing school and during my first year I had a dream of her. I saw her face in a background of white and she said to me, "I've led you this far, the rest is up to you." She was a nurse, as well. My mother cried when I told her and said that Joanne was my angel. I feel "stuck" currently, in my life and I don't know which way to turn and I feel as though as long as I feel stuck I can never truly fulfill my destiny. I also have an ability to see any situation from all sides. For example, I have a form of epilepsy that was triggered by stress. My EEG's all came back normal, no physical illness or disease, but I also can see that had I not had seizures, I would be less empathetic towards the ill and may not have fund the right path in life for myself so in a way my illness was a blessing. My body is very sensitive, physically and emotionally. If I'm too tired I vomit. If I'm too sad I become severely depressed. If I cannot handle something emotionally, I get physically ill...
ReneeBienkowski (1 stories) (6 posts)
12 years ago (2012-07-18)
Thanks, Anne. Wow! I don't even know where to begin. Ok, amethyst, I will get one, the clarity doesn't scare me, I would like more clarity so I can stop using phrases like "hazy" and "I think" and "maybe." I will read your article, you seem to know a lot about this. I would also like to learn more about Chakras, I'm really not very well informed on this sort of thing but the "uprising" of this ability has got my attention peaked! I was raised Catholic so I believed in spirits and angels and all that but I don't consider myself Catholic anymore and I have been searching for many years for spiritual guidance, in whatever form makes best sense to me.
AnneV (4 stories) (1064 posts) mod
12 years ago (2012-07-18)
I think that's quite possible (the glow). The third eye is an energy center and when open, obviously there is more energy flowing through it. She of course was looking at your face. I do a lot of remote viewing and have a fairly open third eye and I still get carded (just this week even) for my ID even though I'm 46.

Meditation is hard in our hectic society. But as you found out, you can have an experience in an altered state, just by taking a nap. The word 'mediation' can turn into a chore. I personally think I'm just going to lay down, relax, and let what be, be (unless I'm remote viewing a specific target, but that's different). I don't know how much you know about chakras, but consider getting an amethyst for your third eye. It may help you see those people that you currently feel around the hospital (unless this would freak you out!).

The highest vibration though does not come from a crystal. It comes from the love emotion. When we help others and are altruistic, we naturally raise our vibrations and experiencing the next dimension (s) become more common. Our dreams clear up, we can perceive outside the five senses and our lives are generally more happy and positive. What this means for all of us (as a suggestion) is to fix broken relationships, ask forgiveness, forgive ourselves, take time out to listen to others, refrain from judging and so on. All those are natural ways to a higher life, and you sound well on your way already. Other things we can do to raise our vibration is to watch what we eat and drink. I know when I did a seven day juice fast, I was able to perceive far more than I normally do because my energy body was so clear.

There are huge rewards to working on your subtle bodies but in so many ways you're already experiencing rewards by your work (but absolutely, more spiritual work = more rewards!). Helping people through illness or bodily damage is an amazing gift, even though I can imagine it's also stressful and draining.

If you get a chance, you might want to peruse my article on how to increase your psychic ability:

Have a great day!
ReneeBienkowski (1 stories) (6 posts)
12 years ago (2012-07-18)
Thank you, Anne, that does help. After reading all of these stories, I don't feel so alone. I would like to embrace this because I believe embracing the metaphysical will lead to a more enlightened life. I'm not sure how to go about that, though. I've tried meditating, I'm not able to completely clear my mind. I've read about the "third eye" and I don't know if that's what I experience or not. I did read one thing that struck me as interesting, though. The article said tat if you, either intentionally or unintentionally have used/opened your third eye, people will tend to describe you as "sparkling" or "glowing" or "bright." Just the other day, and this is not the first time, a woman at a fruit markey gasped when she looked at me, her eyes went wide and she said "YOU GLOW!" I've never seen this woman in my life! What do you think?
AnneV (4 stories) (1064 posts) mod
12 years ago (2012-07-18)
Hospitals are what I would call a hotbed of paranormal activity. Any place that has a pronounced number of deaths will be (prisons, asylums, etc.) There is also a lot of suffering around hospitals which can lower the vibrations of the place. And everything in the universe is about vibrations. The lower the vibrations, the easier it is to bridge the gap from the already low vibrating physical earth to the astral. You may be sensing people but so are other people in the hospital (hence, the rumor that the floor you work on is haunted). Ghosts (or the spirit that has left the body, just as yours will when you die) are everywhere. They are just vibrationally a layer outside of our normal spectrum. However, some people are born with a slightly higher vibratory rate and can perceive them to some degree. You seem to be one of them (and pursuing a health career, I'm not surprised as they can be one of the more evolved souls on our earth plane).

People always need help, alive or deceased. Nothing about us changes when we die. We keep searching, asking, thinking and trying to do the same things as when we were in this dimensional plane. This is the whole thrust of religion which is to clean up your "house" so that when you die, you're not stuck in behavioral patterns that create hell after earth.

It's quite understandable this is confusing. Society shuns this aspect of our life experience and sweeps it under the carpet. But the problem with that is, we all die. So we enter the next plane just as confused, lost and still needing help from those more enlightened. Fortunately, there are lots of souls eager to help because they have been there before.

I think it's a very personal decision as to whether to embrace or to pursue this. We can make all sorts of recommendations but it has to resonate with you. The question really is, what do you want to do? Life is all about choices. We can continue to ignore that shadow in the corner, that voice that calls our name, that weird incident when we feel ourselves floating, or we can continue to investigate, learn, and question. You're also quite fortunate in that you have the internet and live in an era where you won't be burned at the stake for looking to expand your metaphysical knowledge base.

Hope this helps.

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