How do I begin this? I will share with you the experiences I've had throughout my life thus far, I am 31 years old, and hopefully someone will be able to validate or confirm what I think is happening.
As a young child of 9 or 10 I was sitting on the stairs and I heard a man's voice call my name three times. My father was not home, only my mother and I. I didn't respond, I just thought it was odd. As a teenager, I would see fleeting images in my house, as if someone walked by my room and I saw them out of the corner of my eye. My radio would turn on and off by itself, as would the lights in my room. And I always ran up the stairs in that house to the second floor because every time I would step foot on them I had the feeling that someone was chasing me. These experiences continued until I left the house and went to college. In college I laid down on my bed to take a nap but I didn't fall asleep. I was somewhere in a "between" state of mind and I felt my body lift off the bed as I scrambled to pull myself down. In mid air, I turned my head to the right and saw a woman standing there, in a sundress. She said, "Renee, everything will be okay." She disappeared and I softly landed back on the bed. I knew this woman was my grandfather's mother, Jenny, although I'd never met her, I'd seen one picture of her in a wedding dress in my grandmother's house. Next time I saw my grandmother, I asked to see another picture of Jenny and she pulled out an old photo from the 20's of Jenny wearing the same sundress I had seen that day in school. After that experience I think I mentally shut down because it was too hard for me to understand or explain.
So, several years went by with no new experiences until I became a nurse and started working in a hospital. I've seen people, not physically, but mentally, standing around. I feel a presence in certain patient's rooms of people that I cannot see. I cannot physically see these people but when I enter a room I see a flash in my head of who is there and what they are doing and I can feel an emotion that is not my own. Does this make any sense? I think the people at work think I'm a nutcase! It doesn't happen all the time, usually around 9pm or later. Sometimes on my way home I feel I'm being followed but no one's around. The hairs on the back of my neck and my arms stand up and whip my head around to see who's there but no one ever is.
So, the point to all of this is, what is going on and how do I control it? The floor that I work on in the hospital is known to be "haunted." There are reports of callbells going off in rooms that don't have patients in them, walkers moving by themselves and people talking in empty rooms- experienced by staff and patients, alike. So, where do I go from here? Should I embrace this? Should I ignore it? Does someone need my help? Why can I see them? I need someone to help me make sense of this. Thanks for listening.