So this is the first attempt I have had at seeing that there's others out there that can feel the energy, such a relief to find out I'm not crazy. Thank god for global communication at the push of button. I was about to give in to pressure and give up on this dream.
Back to my story, ever since I can remember I have felt different to those around me. I mean I know I look like them but I know from what I hear they don't see the world as I do. I have always preferred my own company over crowds. Now I have always summed it up to me just being weird when a few years ago I was suffering migraine (of which prior to that night I suffered many) this one was particularly bad one. It was about 2am and I had no painkillers so I decided to go to the 24hr store. Only problem was the store was about 3kms away. Now the town I live in is a fairly quiet farm town with about 30, 000 people. Anyway I walk up the road (the dark night immediately makes me feel better), I was on the top of this hill, not overly big but I could see a reasonable way into the distance and the skies were clear, there was no moon either so you imagine how dark it was when all of a sudden the sky to the left of me lit up blue. Thinking that was weird I kept walking when the sky to the right lit up green... I don't know how to explain it but after that the headaches have all but stopped, I thought that was it until I started noticing changes in the way I reacted with things and them with me.
I read on here briefly about elemental kenesis, like influencing water and air. I have never had that feeling that I could do anything with water but fire, air and earth almost overwhelm me sometimes with the amount of energy I can feel it produce.
Though its not just that I feel I can influence outside energies. If I focus enough on the grounds energy then touch it I can feel it course through me, the something happens if I feel a fires warmth or submerge myself in shadows or drown out the world in music. It feels great but I feel that I not only may have some kind of psychic ability but I also believe that's it's possible that I can absorb and hopefully even channel the ambient energy of everything around me.
Please I know this sounds crazy I need help! The energy is to much sometimes, the power I feel coursing through my veins forces me to my knees trying to contain it, it feel like trying to hold on to an explosion.
P.s. One other thing that may help is I've always had this dream that I'm flying but I can feeling the wind against my face almost as if I'm actually there
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First of all, to the question on my post... I feel more spiritual than anything.
Now to what you can do, I think it is absolutely amazing. I wish I could do something like that. Now to control it, I would suggest something you already said you do. I would sit outside, focus on the energy from the Earth and try to absorb it. And try to influence things like fire, water, air etc. Sit outside and see if you can make the wind stronger/calmer. Or you could try holding a lit candle and try to move the flame certain directions. I would like to hear if you make any progress. You can email me if you would like. My email address is on my profile page. Would like to hear more. Good Luck.
-Stephanie