I am a Wiccan, (or Witch/Pagan, in case nobody knows what a Wiccan is, I've listed other names for it), and I have been since I was 12 (I am 14 now). I believe in physic powers and I believe that I might have one. I'm pretty sure I might be an Empath. I've checked all the signs of being and empath and I matched up with every single one.
I have a story to share, to figure out if I might be one or not:
At school, (in June) 8th grade was in the Gym preparing for an awards assembly that we were having. We had to stay in the Gym for about 45 minutes. During that time everyone had to stay close together and huddled in a sweaty tight gym that was easily filled with 300 people. Now, you see, for the longest time I had assumed that I had claustrophobia, even though I handled tight spaces well.
When I was in the gym I started looking around from person to person listening to their conversations, watching how they interacted with people, and watched their body language because I didn't have anything else to do, when suddenly I was washed over with emotions where it felt like I dived into water or a blanket was swept over my body. I felt frustration, happiness, excited, a bored feeling, an upset feeling, and many many more. I started to feel uncomfortable in my own skin and I wanted to crawl out. I wanted to break down and cry and laugh and scream all at the same time. I thought I was having a claustrophobia attack and started hyperventilating which got bad because I have asthma. I asked to go to the nurse and when I got there out of the crowd (there was a couple people in the nurses office) I felt dizzy and exhausted. I wanted to sleep and relax. I ended up doing so and went back about a half hour later by then everyone was gone and back to class.
I've had other experiences like that. Not only in large crowds, but when I was talking face to face conversations with people when we are completely alone. I would feel what they felt when we were talking about something we had different views on or on something completely random. This happens over phones too.
I also have so many people come to me with their problems even though we barely know each other or sometimes when we just met! I would give my opinion and help in the best way possible. Afterwards, I feel tired and drained.
Also, sometimes I get this overwhelming urge to help people. Like this one boy I know, he's very troubled and really wasn't ever nice to me but I still felt like I should help him, not to be his friend necessarily but to help him get on the right path. This has happened more than once.
I have tried to figure out more about empathy but I'm still not sure I am one. I've had many more experiences like these. Please can you help me to figure out if I am
An empath? And if I am can someone please tell me how to control it?
Thank you so much!