I Feel Mountains Draw Me Towards Themselves
Hey guys I'm a 19 year old guy from India.
This is not necessarily a story but a description of various things I feel Or have felt in my life.
I live in a city, but I don't like it much here.
I seem to be attracted towards nature, especially mountain and hills and valleys.
Whenever I see mountains I experience deja vu.
And feel as if they are calling me The feeling is inexplainable, it is a queer kind of feeling
I just feel like I should spend my life in hills and among mountains. Whenever I visit mountains or hills, I feel like I belong there...
I feel nostalgic like as if the mountains draw me towards themselves
I love nature and I feel like I should have been born in the medival times
I also feel that I'm meant to do something different in life. Something which will change the course of life of a lot of people, sounds crazy I know.
Then there is another feeling, sometimes when am doing something I feel like I'v already done that!
This is a really weird feeling and it happens with small small things.
For example a book lying on my bed falls on the floor, I pick it up and keep it up on the bed
But while doing so, I feel like I've already done that before!
I feel like as if I've already gone through that moment ir timeperiod I don't know what this is but it sure freaks me out for a second or two!
Also I feel dizzy when I visit hospitals, feel as if I died last in a hospital, so I avoid visiting hospitals as much as I can.
But that is ofcourse a phobia, which I learnt later on is called noscemophobia.
I wonder if anyone else has the same feelings like me? Or am I just the only one.? Or am I just crazy!