I have been having these premonitions since childhood. They generally start with a vague bad feeling, like something terrible happened that I can't remember. Then throughout the day and night it escalates to concern and fear and eventually to debilitating panic attacks. I have no idea who is in trouble, and therefore and am not able to help anyone out. I just feel crazy and useless. I have missed work or other important things because I'm such as mess at these times.
I generally get the premonitions about 2 days before the event but sometimes it has been only 1 day and once it was three days.
This happened before my great aunt passed, when my dad, sister and grandmother were in a serious car accident, when both my grandmothers passed, when my chihuahua passed, when my Mother's cockerspaniel passed, before my Dad passed away, and just recently before my friend's dog was poisoned. There are also other vague premonitions that occur along the way that I find out later were probably due to a loved one in either severe physical or emotional pain.
I pick up the phone just before it rings and know who will be calling, especially if is my sister, mother or brother.
My cousin is the only person in my family that has these kinds of premonitions. And his is pretty much the same situation as mine.
I have tried to turn off the feelings by ignoring them, or dulling them down with alcohol or xanax and that only makes things worse. I would love to either be able to be more helpful with these premonitions or completely eradicate them. Any ideas?
Thank you for your time,