This is my first post. I am very exited and have been so anxiousness to get answers for what has been happening to me. I am a Christian. I grew up going to church since I was little, I have been baptized. I used to pray and had a relationship with god. But as I started to get older it started to fade. I stopped going and I got into different things. I start to not believe in god, and got mostly into Darwinism or just basic spirituality of nature and energy. Not necessarily in any type of god. But still in the back of my mind I still couldn't give officially say I was not a christian. I still always believed that god died of the cross for everyone's sins. My family is heavily religious also.
Okay so here is the details about what I have been experiencing. I have always used drugs since I was about 16-17 years old, but I didn't have a huge problem. But withing the past 2 years I have been using Heroin and it has gotten extremely bad to say I am at the point of being a full blown addict. ANYWAYS for the past few months I have had this feeling of a presence around me. Lurking and following me where I go. I feel its energy mostly at night or early mourning. It may be some kind of spirit or demon. I do not think its a angel because it's not good energy, it seems dark. I started to notice at night when I would go to sleep I would here random taping on my walls, and random things around my room. Like it was trying to keep me awake. Just TAP here TAP there. And it eventually got louder and louder. And I knew it wasn't just my house making creaking noises. Also when I would dream, I could feel it enter in my dream. I will have terrible dreams. Like last night I had a dream my mother was trying to stab and kill me. While yelling blasphemous and crude words. While I try to sleep it moves my bed, and shakes it. But very slightly. I even fell asleep in my car and it started to mess with me. This thing will not leave me ALONE!
I have only talked about it with a few people. I mentioned it to my dad and he told me to pray and what not. So when things like that would start to happen I would just start to pray. Or say "lord please rebuke this demon" or "god please cleanse this house of bad spirits" basically just call out God's name. And the demon would go away and hide. But it has always been coming back. I feel like with me still continuing to use drugs, it puts my soul and spirit unguarded. And that's maybe why it keeps coming back. So now I am asking you all what to do? Do I continue to keep just praying? Should I try to communicate with it and see what it wants? Should I go to a priest and get blessed? PLEASE help me with something solid. This is extremely frightening for me. I have not really experienced or dealt with this before. So I would like to know what it is and what should I do? Thank you all and wish me the best.