Evil Voices And Enlightenment

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

While the general rule "never talk to strangers" is nice to tell children, adults know that sometimes one has to. Say you're lost and don't know where you are. In the internet-age, you may not have a problem, but if you don't have any high-tech gadgets, you might have to *oh horror!* ask a stranger for directions. Now if the stranger points a gun at you or tries to sell you drugs, maybe talking to them is not such a good idea. Besides, there are many different people in the world, and you can learn something from all of them, even if it's "don't max out your credit cards". Of course, to talk to some of the big goods or big bads, there are some hoops you need to jump through first. For the big bads, you want them convinced that you have the right to talk to them and have sufficient firepower on standby if needed. For the big goods, you need to flatter them a bit and make sure that you are ready to understand what they're telling you and that their great luminous presence doesn't overwhelm you.

If you have no idea what I just said, please look up "metaphor". Also, please note that I have no personal experience yet in evocation or invocation and am simply extrapolating from what I've read.

That said, one should "ever never" grab a hot pot with bare hands; use a potholder. If a potholder is too complicated a device, don't grab the pot at all.

For an introduction to some strangers and potholders, see this http://www.hermetics.org/pdf/grimoire/goetia.pdf.

Love is the law, love under will.

First of all NEVER engage in conversation with a demon, ever never! That is one good way to become possesed. Second of all when you are not in control of your mind and spirit you allow yourself to be open to possible spirit possession. It doesn't always happen, people have used drugs such as peyote for centuries to open themselves up to the spirit world, but they prepare themselves. You need until be grounded, put pray, fast, etc. So, now you need to pray, smudge yourself maybe fast, stop the drug use, obviously, and, yes, that does sound like succubus... Be careful!

Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.

I recommend doing something about the demons. You could try talking to them and figuring out what they want from you, but since they're demons, they might try to deceive you. The other course of action would be to exorcise or banish them. Depending on your personal beliefs, this could be done in several ways. The one I'm personally familiar with (though I haven't met any demons to test it on) is the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram (easily Googled).

I would also recommend learning some way of psychic and mental protection. Meditate or set up a shield against thoughts that bother you. LBRP works as a moving meditation and a shield. You could also accept those thoughts and metabolize them. Like "sure, these demons are planning to do something nasty to me, but hey they can't help it, and we're all part of this world anyways. If a tiger tried to eat me, why would I begrudge it nourishment or protection of its territory?"

Coldness is sometimes associated with psychic/otherworldly phenomena as it is said that psychic beings need energy to manifest or do something. Thus, coldness because they take the heat energy from you or your surroundings. In a similar strain, some of the people on this site drain the batteries of their electronics when they're in a negative emotional state.

Demon women could be what is known as succubi or what is in some occult literature known as vampires http://hermetic.com/crowley/magick-without-tears/mwt_66.html. It could also be the fantasies of a frustrated subconscious. Most of my sex-related dreams are at least semi-lucid.

You could try several techniques to have more lucid dreams and/or better control of your dreams. One of these is keeping a dream diary in which you write down your dreams IMMEDIATELY after you wake up (even if it's the middle of the night). Another method is making a habit of checking whether or not you're dreaming while you're still awake. The habit will carry over into your dreams, and that way you'll gain some lucidity from the knowledge that you're sleeping. Looking at your own hands is a good method for this. With any luck, you'll get to recognizing and controlling your own dreams.

Know that you're not alone in sleep habits. It can easily take me half a day to get my full sleep, especially if I didn't get much sleep the previous couple of days. One strange thing I've noticed though is that if I'm really tired and I go to sleep around 8 or 9 pm ish, I can sometimes wake up a lot earlier, like say 5 am and not be able to sleep again. This usually happens if I really don't get enough sleep for the previous days (thus prompting me to sleep earlier) or if I've just moved timezones (11 hours difference specifically). Perhaps sleeping during the "natural" times really does help one get by on less sleep (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Circadian_rhythm).

So if you can stand the discipline and the fact that no sane teenager goes to bed at 8pm, try going to sleep really early for a week or so and see if it has any effect. (To make sure that you can actually fall asleep at that time, you could "sleep-starve" yourself the day before starting, like waking up way too early).

It could also have something to do with diet. One of my acquaintances read something and now he's on a vegan diet because apparently that helps one need less sleep.

Another factor could be light exposure. If you can, try sleeping with your window blinds open so that light from the sunrise will be able to reach you. The best would be if your window faces east and the light falls directly on your sleeping face, but probably any gradual heightening of light would have some effect.

Oh, also, I hear that one's sleeping and eating patterns are under the control/jurisdiction of the lowest chakra (and the Malkuth sphere of the Tree of Life). Perhaps some meditation on those might help. You could also try things in a similar strain, like burning candles of appropriate color, burning appropriate incense, wearing the appropriate color, etc. You'd have to look up the correspondences for those though.

Love is the law, love under will.