I am 43 and just over the past several months have been going through many un-explainable changes. By that I mean I am seeing movement of things in my peripheral vision that disappear when I look directly at it, my chair has been yanked backward while I was sitting perfectly still with no one else around, I am capturing many orbs in photos throughout my home, and frequently I break down and start to cry or feel sad for no apparent reason while feeling tingly. The timing is very weird because 1 of my 4 children recently came to me for a serious talk which dealt with him seeing things and hearing his name called while alone in his home. He consulted a friend who professes to be "gifted" and this friend went on to detail many specific things about our family and me in particular. Mind you I have never met this individual.
Anyhow it was relayed to my son that I was the person he needed to open up to because I have a strong connection to the spirit world. This startled me because of all the experiences I had been having and have had since childhood. One thing that really has me puzzled is that this person says that I am surrounded by MANY spirits, and a woman specifically is waiting to speak with me so I have to "re-awaken" my gifts as they are strong but first I must remember why they disappeared and only I know the answer to that. I have been thinking very hard since this information was relayed to me and I am drawing a blank. I do know that if at some point your guides have frightened you they tend to back off, so it makes a little sense. As a child I would be extremely frightened for some reason that escapes me now, and Had to have covers over my head to sleep. Could this have been the result of spirit interaction, quite possibly. Also, I was told I had a playmate as a child who was Not actually real, she was a spirit. I asked both parents and they don't remember me with imaginary playmates, but both say I was always intuitive and said I saw ghosts in the house.
I apologize for the long post but I don't know where else to turn. In an attempt to open myself back up I started using oracle cards & the readings have been spot on. Additionally, I have a constant sense that someone is with me and I have tried meditating to communicate with no luck. Between this information, my sense of different emotions out of nowhere, constant orbs and seeing vague images I know I have some type of ability but I need guidance in finding out what it is and strengthening it. At first I was scared when I heard knocks or things moving but now I am at peace with it so why am I still unable to freely speak with or see my spirit guides? I pray throughout the day and ask for them to show themselves. Am I just not ready for what's to come? I know I am sane. I am a police officer and very educated with no history of mental illness, but this struggle to figure out what's going on is draining physically and emotionally.
Any suggestions or guidance is greatly accepted and appreciated... Thank you so much.