Was hesitant about even posting anything because I didn't really receive much feedback on previous stories, but this is the only forum that may understand my plight. The last few months I have really been seeing things differently and experienced many unexplainable things happening to and around me. Past few weeks my senses have heightened, I have felt at peace, and overall happier. Well until this past week.
Meditating every day along with prayer has taken me to a level of consciousness I have never known. I was under the impression that persistence would pay off and my full awakening was just around the bend. Unfortunately I never reached that complete openess and it hurts so much inside.
My senses have always been heightened since childhood but even more so now. The slightest noise, whether sudden or expected causes extreme uneasiness and jumpiness, smells have become more prevalent, my vision, as I mentioned in another post is still randomly hazy picking up floating objects, and my body tingles quite frequently. None of this is attributed to medical issues because I have checked.
Only during one session have I caught a glimpse of an image in my minds eye of a person, who I cannot identify. The orbs around me have increased recently as seen in pictures I randomly snap every day, so I know there is a presence with me. Why can't I open up properly to see, hear or communicate at all with them? Is there something so wrong with me that I can't connect?
For the first time in my life I have felt a sincere closeness and connection with my true self, but its turning into an unpleasant experience not being able to connect fully. Visualization is a real problem for me that I have been working on through guided meditation with no success. Is that why I am unable to meet my spirit guides? Somebody please help me understand what is going on with me.
My ears ring randomly or get stuffy for some reason, my left eye lid jumps out of the blue lately, I'm constantly getting cold chills out of nowhere and my 3rd eye throbs without me even meditating now. It actually hurts. After doing some research it seems to me that what I have experienced and feel is a psychic/spiritual awakening, so why am I so slow progressing. As a child I did show signs of the "gift" but lost my abilities long ago. Could whatever reason I lost them be stagnating my progress at this time in my life? All the signs are here, I just feel like a total failure because I'm stuck!
If there is a sensitive person or someone with the ability to see what is happening with me out there could you please shed some light on things?!? Crying for no reason and feeling weird sensations all the time is no fun, especially when I cannot fully understand why it occurs. I thank you in advance anyone with some positive insight on my dilemma.