I don't know how to word this, I'm beyond myself right now. But have you ever gotten shivers up your spine, even if in a sweltering hot room, from a song or singer? Yeah, that's normal to me, I've had the feeling more than once.
I've had it when I sung with emotion as well, and I don't sing "seriously" often. Usually when I do so I have to be in this different state, and often more in times it happens subconsciously. I get told that I'm really good at singing, but when I try to do it consciously when I'm not in that certain whatever-it's-called state it's not the same. And other times when I sing a song in that state, that I make up off the top of my head, it feels like a spell. I feel as if I just came out of a trance or some enchantment at times, it's weird. But anyways, that's not my problem.
Just now I listened to this song that was sent to me twice, and soon after I was done with it I had to listen to it again to make sure the feeling I got from it was the same. I re-listened to it a few times, and the outcome is the same.
The song just gives me a really bad uneasy queasy feeling. It's giving me the creeps, it sent me into such an uneasy feeling I felt like I was going to puke. I had to start rushing to find new and better songs, or listen to something better to calm myself because it was that bad. I don't know how to explain the bad feeling, it's not a sad one, it feels like it has some bad karma attached to the song/lyrics. Which I highly doubt anyone will understand me, and just deem me crazy.
I should be able to understand the song and like it, but I don't and this feeling I just can't erase it. It's nothing I've never felt before, and I'm seriously influenced by music. I dabble in just about every genre in almost every language.
I have been called an empath by multiple friends and multiple other sources because of how I react easily to TV shows, movies, stories, books, and other things in my day-to-day life. And still yet, I can't shake that feeling. I've never felt it before. I honestly don't know where the time went, I listened to the song at midnight and now it's about to be 2AM. I spent two hours freaking out.
I apologize for the long text; I'm just finally starting to calm down. I was literally beyond myself.
Anyone can help me figure this experience out or had anything similar? I really don't know what to call any of this. If I go into any more detail on "music related feeling empath psychic stuff" I'll have a novel on my hands.