I did not know which experience site to use so I just thought to throw this one out here.
For many years since I was a child, I have always told my mother or grandmother that I felt very deeply that something will happen. It is a mind boggling experience because when I feel like that something is about to happen, it happens. I hope I make since.
I'm going to share with you all, some of my experiences and perhaps those who are more knowledgeable in the Psychic field can give me some sort of explanation, if there is any.
My mother was preparing for a business trip to New York. She was suppose to have a training for a law office at the World Trade Center. Around this time I had gotten sick with a virus and was admitted into the hospital for several weeks. My mother was suppose to leave to this business trip Sept 10th; her training starting at 9AM the next morning. My mother booked a flight to leave to New York at 5Am September 11th. The night before still in the hospital, I had a dream of burning buildings. Tall buildings. I saw my mother lying on the ground crying out for me. I woke up calling out for my mother. She woke and came to check on what was wrong. All I told her was I dreamed of burning buildings; she decided to cancel her flight last minute to stay with me. Around 9AM my doctor woke her up and turned on the television, and asked her if she still wanted to go to work. Many of mothers co-workers passed away that day.
Around this time for several weeks I had this nagging feeling to get in touch with my best friend Dean. My friend Dean and I had been friends since middle school. Last time I had seen him was around Christmas 2011. Well to continue, on July 17th I was searching through my phone on information about Halloween Horror Nights in Orlando Universal Studios. What made me think of searching for that was the sudden thought of my good friend Dean. Before, he had thought that it would be a good idea to attend Universal Studios for the Halloween event, together again. I had forgotten his number so I called my mother and asked to search through my old phone for his number. She had told me she had just spoken to him on Sunday. He wanted us to go to the beach.
So on that day (July 17th, 2012) around 4PM I decided to put some techno/electric music on and dance. I sometimes find that as a source of entertainment. As well as he. However, that nagging thought about my friend came again. I started thinking to my self a sort of plan on what to talk about with my best friend and how awesome it would be to meet up and go to the beach. To see my best friend again and just catch up; what a great feeling that would be.
I suddenly get this text. It was Deans ex-girlfriend. First, she asked me if I remember her. I asked "Jessica as in my step mother?"
She said no, "I'm Ray's ex-girlfriend."
He had changed his name to Raymond. I sent her a message "Hey! Hows it going! I sure do remember!".
Then sends me a message telling me "I don't if you know this, but Ray died."
Folks, I'm going to tell you that she was joking. So I called her. Her voiced sounded ok. I asked to repeat what she had just told me through text. And so she did. Calmly, I ask her "Your right? Please tell me that you kidding?"
I could her voice fall. She wasn't kidding. Yet denial came in full force. It wasn't until I went to his viewing, did I actually believe that Dean/Ray had actually died.
The night before his viewing I spent the night crying. Trying to come up with explanations on how all of this could night be true. That night I had a dream of him. Although he was 19 years old then, he looked young, fit, handsome. He was also with another young man. I ran to him and gave him the biggest hug I could ever give and cried out "I know it! I know you were alive!" All he did was hug me as hard I did him. And then kiss med. I knew that that he had feelings for me. However, my love for his was only as a sister loves her brother.
The other young man I am assuming is his older brother. His older brother had passed away years ago before him while he was still a teen.
The night before he passed away my mother spoke to him. He had wanted to speak to me. My mother told him that I had moved with my father. And give my new phone number. He said he would call me. My mother told that they spent hours talking. Planning on a beach outing. Around 3AM July 16th my mother said they finished speaking. Later on that day he was found sleeping. And he never woke up.
Late Sept 2012-Present
After trying to cope with lost of my friend and some troubles I was going through work, I began working in this new attraction complex. I was part time at Disney. While working here I had made many friends. But there was in particular. We became good friends. Dating wise, he wasn't my type. To nice and shy. Did I forget to mention to nice? As months progressed I began to think he kind of was attracted to me. I wasn't. At first when were just starting to become cool, I started noticing things he did while I was working; such as doing my job for me. I began to think that he himself thought I did not know how to perform my job, which I was told I did by creditable sources. I started thinking to my self "My gosh he's annoying"
On one particular day while thinking this he just came off and asked me "Are you alright?"
As a reply I asked "Yes, why do you ask?" he just shook it off. I didn't think much of it. Just thought it weird that he asked me that. As the months continued onward I began to know him. And I began to fall. But I tried to ignore it. Because I didn't want it to happen.
However something funny began happen. Sometimes when we talked he'd always tell me how he was thinking the same thing. Or would say the very same or similar thing I was or wanted to say. Sometimes when I had worrying thoughts in my mind he'd sometimes surprisingly come and ask me if there was something wrong.
Lately I have noticed something odd. Sometimes I have this overwhelming feeling that he is near me. Its like this raw feeling. Now I'm not going to explain dreams about him or anything like that because that's not what this post is about.
I could be fully awake; day or night; and I feel- I don't if I should call it presence or what. But I feel him there. And I know he's not dead because we're now pen pals and he sends messages. He lives and is from New Zealand.
Now usually when I get these feelings I either try to ignore it or just pray that he's okay. Sometimes this feeling is so strong that it feels as if I was stuck in a small space. And the air feels heavy and tingly. Now, I am in no way or form claustrophobic if that's the case. And I shouldn't be- in an open space. The last time when that exact feel or experience happened like it did a few week ago, something told me to check my phone; and I did. He had sent me a message. Just a small innocent message.
Now in no way or form is this man and I in any kind of relationship. Only a beautiful friendship. But I did went to a Psychic in Kissimmee Florida for other reasons, and he had told me at first, that in place in that time currently worked, I would meet the man that I was meant to marry. I told him that I did not want that.
The Psychic replied me "This is your time. And he is the one." The last I saw him I had asked about that and he replied "He lives a great amount of distance from you. He is a good man. And he is the one I spoke to you of. You are both are both are meant to be together" However, he did ask for his name.
What I would like to understand is what is this experience? Is it some sort of premonition? Or is some kind of telepathy? I am not to educated of these things and I would like to understand it.
Now, I will say this. That there are many other types of these experiences that have happen; as well as other kind of experiences that I have not mentioned in this post. Perhaps you have seen a glimpse of them? But I rather find out about this experience first before going on to post about some other experiences that I have had.
This particular experience has worried me a lot. It doesn't happen so often. But it worries me because sometimes I start thinking that I am going mad. But when I see these things that I feel happens, its as if my mind has exploded and recollected its self again. Like an "Told you."
I can never forget about Sept 11th. More things happened that during that time I haven't mention; and its so weird how it all happened. My best friends death will be something I have had trouble to get off my mind. Lastly, the whole thing about guy that I friend-zoned now feel for; having him think the same things as I or overwhelmingly feeling his presence when he lives in the other side of the planet. The Psychic telling me that he's my true love or soul mate. Or whatever. I kind of have a hard time believing that. Its to good to be true. I just don't understand why these experiences have involved him as well. I've never had this happen before with some else telling me that they were thinking the same thoughts like me. Occasionally.
I hope I have made sense in what I have written. And please feel free to ask questions if you find it difficult to understand me.
Thanks for reading.