This year I'm turning 17 and I feel like all these things I feel now are just geting worse. It all started after I ended up in coma when I was 6,I didn't really bother with it because of several traumas I've been through (abusive family,ect) until I was 13. It all happened so fast and unexpected, I mean, I had experiences with ghosts (changes in temperature, cold 'touches' on my skin) but I never spoke to one.
I just remember that night when I woke up at 10 pm and there was this guy sitting next to me and he told me something, I couldn't remember what because then I woke up at 2 am in the same position I was talking to him in. The next morning I remembered that he said ''When you'll be 18,it'll get worse'' and nothing more. And after that, I started to happen. Me and my friend were walking from school and I just froze and told her she was going to get hit by a car and that her leg is going to be broken. She actually got hit 20 minutes after I left. I happened again and again (I can't write it all down), I told my friend our photographer is going to hit a tree with his motorcycle and it happened that very next night. Every time I came home, something would just fall and break down, I thought I was crazy and tried to forget about it. It was okay until I moved to another city.
To sum it all up, if I concentrate enough, I can hear thousands of thoughts, I feel what other people feel and I don't want to go out anymore, I know which grade I'm going to get, in what time something happened, I moved a damn pencil off my table the other day, I don't know how, I just wanted to move it and I was so tired after it, I know where are the things nobody else knows they are, I just see the picture in my head, or hear the same voice I heard when I was 13,I'm starting to freak out because I feel like I don't know what and I don't know what's happening to me.
There is this one more thing. People just come to me and start to talk about their problems, for no reason, I look like every other girl, since I was 6,I know I don't belong here, it hurts in a really strange way, I sometimes found myself crying and saying I want to go home and many other things, so I would like someone to tell me what's going on and talk to someone, I really need help.