I am a very mature 24 year old I don't drink or do drugs and I've always felt I could, as I call it, open myself to things but never had because I fear what could happen if I did.
Here recently I was talking to my mom and explaining to her how I feel I could and so and I decided to try to prove to myself that it was in my head and started explaining things I pictured in my head and a specific person I seen in my head and describe not only her grandfather but memories she had as a child with him. I also did the same with my fiance's mother about her father who had died before my fiance was born.
After doing this I've become interested in all of these visions I have but I don't know how to control it or sometimes understand what I see and feel. I don't even understand how to explain this its all new to me in the since of opening myself to it but I've even seen, in my grandmas house, a green swirl of what I call energy that I feel can change peoples moods its weird how I explain it its not human more if like maybe an energy portal.
I'd like to learn more about things like that and if I can do more then I realize I'd love to have someone help me learn more about this and hear stories like mine. I normally can see almost like a picture in my head but it moves like a movie but I can also get words or sentences that just pop in my head but when they happen my emotions automatically connect to it if its sad my eyes will even start tearing up as if I feel the spirits emotion I have also felt that but in anger or fear or even depression but I can tell the difference between random things that pop in my head because then there's no emotion to it. I could also see like symbols but I have a hard time trying to figure out what they mean.
I've never physically seen apperisions I've heard voices here and there and I have also seen a shadow in my house and I was the only one home in the physical form Id probably run screaming if I did because as much interest I've recently gain in this I also have a long standing fear of it as well because I don't feel I have control over it like I want to. So more less I feel like a blind man reaching for a strangers hand I can't tell if who grabs is good or bad. If you have any advise or would like to talk about my experience or similar experiences of yours I'd love to talk to you... Thank you!