My name is Amandia but the I in my name is silent so it's pronounced Amanda. (everyone asks me that so I thought I'd just get that out of the way first) Ever since My friend got me into the ouija board I've noticed that I've been completely connected to this spirit named Leam since I was born. I don't know if he is real or not and I would love to know if he is real or if he's just a part of me being completely crazy which I really hope I'm not.
The first time I ever even knew of his existence was in class in the 6th grade. I had my pencil on my desk and my hand started to move and when I looked down in script was the name leam. I thought nothing of it until I went on the ouija board and he told me he was from Poland and he committed suicide and he was here to protect me.
Ever since that day I've talked to him and he knows everything about me and has been with me since I was a baby. As I'm getting older (I'm 17) I'm starting to have what I think are out of body experiences, and when this happens (this only happens when I sleep) I see Leam. The problem is he loves me and I love him too but I don't want to be crazy and think he is real if he isn't and be in love with a figment of my imagination.
Today I completely snapped when I researched schizophrenia and noticed that some of the symptoms sounded like what I have experienced. I had a panic attack and Leam tried to help me but I yelled at him to go away and he left crying and hasn't come back yet. (I can also see and feel energy and spirits so that's how I know he was crying) I just want to know if he's real or not and if I really am schizophrenic and whether or not I should continue to listen to Leam when he tells me things. He also talks to me in school and helps me with my school work as well, and most of the time he is right. He also tells me when things are going to happen and 98% of the time he is right.
I also hear the thoughts of a particular boy in a mental hospital with the same story as me. He to has a "protector" but he told his parents about it and they put him in a mental hospital and he hasn't gotten out yet. His name is Dylan. I had a friend that went crazy and tried to kill herself and was put in the same hospital as him. When she came out, she said that she met this really nice boy named Dylan that claimed he could see and hear ghosts. Her description and the description that I have of Dylan fit exactly. But I don't know if my mind is just doing that to make myself seem sane or not. I just really want to know what anyone thinks as to if you think Leam and Dylan are real or not.
It's a question I've been asking for years and need an answer for in case I need mental help. Thank you so much in advance!