Greetings to you, I am not really sure if my story or I should say my question is relevant to this site but I need answer and I think this site is very good place to start, So my question is why do I feel like finding love is my most important life purpose?
I am confused because it could be some sort of mental thing and or even real feeling, I suspect it is mental thing because I've got bullied a lot in school and that bad feeling could now express itself as need and or thirst of love but on the other hand sometimes I can really feel the another person even I don't know that person but I kind of have this feeling that that person really does exist I can sense that person's presence in my heart like that person is right next to me and going through the same feelings as me. Don't know how to exactly describe it but that feeling makes me so connected so happy that it's like we are two parts of one soul! From the day I recognize what love is I am always thinking about finding love and nothing more of course I have finished my university and I am employed but it is almost 10 years now and I am growing restless for that love. I am really confused I had never been with somebody I have such a confidence that I will find that person that I have always rejected everyone who wanted to be with me simply because I didn't feel that person was right for me, I am afraid, what if all of these feelings are just childish game and in the end I will be alone? What if they are real and if I ignore them I would never find that special person? Can you please help me to see my feeling with more clarity? Thank You.