I am fond, really fond of researching into Spiritual/Psychic
Abilities and is willing to know and develop my own gifts. But I just can't find an article about my problem.
During my practice there is this inferior thing in my head that blocks my meditation as I wish to see the faces of my guides and the Divine Interventions.
I had this one moment wherein I closed my eyes and ask my Higher self, spirit guides and the Divine Interventions to make me see them in my unconscious mind and in the middle of meditating I always see creepy images in my head, like scary ghosts, flying, shouting, blood spilled, bloody faces and it's really bugging me and my meditation for I am not into ghosts because as far as I know myself I am overly afraid of these beings. Or maybe I am just watching a lot of paranormal movies that happens to be applied in my real life. I wish not. The purpose of why I want to develop my Psychic abilities is now because I want to see dead people or the restless souls which belongs to the Lower Dimension but the Divine Spirits and the Spirit guides that belongs to the Higher Dimension are the ones I am working this for.
The key point is that when I asked the beings in the Higher Dimension to make me see them in my unconscious mind, I see a figure slowing sharpening and making me see a solid body with a high energy vibration and is mostly glowing in the color of white which looks a lot like an angel or my spirit guide because she's wearing white and her hands are in 'praying hands', I see a golden brown hair laid before each side of her shoulders but the face is dark and it's slowly fading from chin to forehead and the images of creepy figures,faces,bloody and more scary, fainting images are faintly moving and disappear and reappear before her but as I continue to focus harder on her face, these creepy images gets stronger and appears twice more than the previous focus.
I guess it's my fear of ghosts that is making me unable to concentrate on seeing the Divine spirits, I'm concentrating and at the same time my consciousness battles with my unconscious mind giving my unconsciousness my fear of seeing creepy ghost images. So until now, when I see dreams of Heavenly beings their faces are always black. But I can still see their hair and its color.
This is my daily struggle, they can see me from head to toe which is my full figure but I can only see their body and their faces black.
What can I do? I badly wish to see these beings in the Higher Dimensions, they have helped me a lot, gave me signs saying that they are here beside me and is willing to help me but during my meditation or during my sleep I can't get through the stupid, creepy, fainting images appearing before them and that leaves me seeing them with a 'black face'. *sigh
I feel drained now.
I feel like there's no cure to this or if there is, mind to tell me, I would be glad to read your 'Help' responses.