Started yesterday, my ear began to itch. No sign of a rash, no sign of anything physically that would cause it to itch. It went away last night but I got it again about an hour ago. After reading something that said it could be something trying to tell me something, I decide to close my eyes, sit quietly and wait to see if I felt/heard/saw anything. Almost instantly I started to see an X. I didn't know what it meant and was trying to figure it out, then an A popped up. I still didn't get it until the name "XAVIER" spelled out completely in front of me (eyes are still closed) one letter at a time. I felt confused and opened my eyes but I felt really space out, so I closed my eyes again. Almost instantly I saw a diagonal line sort of slashing in front of me. It redid it a couple times, then I saw just a road.
I opened my eyes again wondering "what is going on?" and "what could it mean?" then I started to feel extremely sad. I closed my eyes again and kept only seeing a road, the sad feeling started to get stronger, and then a stop sign appeared. I opened my eyes again and my eyes started watering and I felt like I was going to burst into tears. I shed one tear, closed my eyes again, and saw a truck and a stop sign, this time my view was different.
Before, it looked sort of like a drawn picture of a road directed horizontally with a stop sign directly in the middle, this time it all looked like a real life road and my vision was almost as if I was standing behind a truck at a stop sign getting ready to cross an intersection. I can see cars going past the truck, but I don't see anyone. I only hear laughter from (what I'm assuming) is coming from the inside of the truck. I felt emotional and sad for about 15 minutes, tearing up and getting goosebumps off and on but now it just feels as is my heart in extremely heavy and I almost feel sick, like I'm heart broken. I feel crazy, but I can't shake this feeling and these images.
The only reason it is scaring me is because I had this exact same sad, teary-eyed then heartbroken sick feeling the day before the terrorist attack happened in Paris. It's a feeling like someone just passed away, but no explanation for the feeling.
Anyway, I'm scared now because after the attack happened, I knew why I had felt the way I did before and now I feel this way again except tapped into the feelings and it showed me the name Xavier, which is my fiance's best friend's name. My ear stopped itching since I saw all that and now my heart remains sunk and I keep trembling. Am I just crazy or has anyone else on here experienced this? What do I do?