it's long, but I need help and I don't know what is happening or what to do, anyway, it started when I moved away from my mum and lived with my dad, when I was about 10. We moved around quite a few places and never thought of anything weird. I moved away from the Isle of Wight and moved to Essex when I was 11. After a few months of living there I started to feel angry and kept having nightmares. My dad said he felt something in the house but always told me from a young age that nothing can hurt me if I pretended I had a bubble around me, so I just forgot about it.
We kept hearing a loud bang coming from my bedroom every so often, like someone was jumping off of my bed. It kept happening about twice a week. I kept getting angrier and angrier as I got older and kept feeling as though something was watching me. I thought I was being paranoid. It would get to the point where I felt uncomfortable sleeping or even showering for the fear that something was watching me. And I don't know if this is linked to it, sounds stupid, but our spoons kept disappearing completely, nobody had taken them anywhere and we hardly used them as they were for special occasions, so they were kept separate. I always saw a dark image, I could never see the face. I'm usually not one to get scared, but is really did shock me and scare me to the point where I didn't want to be alone.
When I was 17 my anger got the best of me and me and my dad kept having arguements to the point where he kicked me out, I still felt as though something was watching me even then. I moved around a few different places with friends until I got settled into a friends house with her and her mum. I was there about a week and the same thing happened. The jumping off of the bed, but it kept happening more. Now she had cats, so at first, I thought the cats were doing it, but when both of the cats were downstairs with us, the same thing was happening. My friend was a bit younger than me and she kept getting angry when she came home. The spoons kept going as well, and my friends mum said she'd get the vicar in thinking it would work because, us being young girls, were starting to get quite scared of being in the house. She called him in, he did some reading and we thought it would be fine, nope, a week later, it kept happening. I got angrier and angrier to the point where I could visually see myself hurting people for no reason, even loved ones, and having dreams of it. I stopped sleeping as much and would have to sleep next to someone.
I moved out from there and moved into a shared accommodation when I was a bit older. I had my own room and I had never told anyone about the fear I had of even going to sleep on my own. So I slept about an hour a day, the feeling got worse, it felt like a man, wasn't a nice feeling. My best mate stayed at mine, whilst I was visiting my mum who I hadn't seen in 8 years. She called me up one night and said, "I hate it here, I feel like someone's watching me". And I felt the same way, as though a man was leaning over me, watching me.
I recently moved back with my mum, the feeling keeps getting worse, I hardly sleep now and if I do I have to have my dog with me. I heard in a clear voice just as I was about to sleep "in a month", I don\'t know what it means, the voice was dark and deep and the feeling of someone watching me sticks, standing by my bed, I keep hearing a loud grunty cough and a heavy breathing when nobody is even around me. About 2 nights ago, it really hit me, I broke down, scared, I sat on the sofa and I felt half of my face go absolutely freezing and the dog growling. The same thing has happened tonight, I layed on the sofa and my lap went freezing cold, nobody is in the house, it sounds like someone keeps jumping off of my bed and I haven't slept at all. Is there anyone who knows what is happening, whether it's just me or it's something here, and what to do please? I feel like somethings following me and I don't know what to do anymore, I can't sleep and constantly feel scared and paranoid about doing anything.