It's my fault-- I told my friends family, and coworkers that they didn't believe me, and now, after several more of my "clairvoyant" experiences have come true, everyone is pretending that they don't know what I'm talking about. It makes me so mad. They are also repeating the same things I did last year, pretending that I am not what I said I was.
I just wish I had someone to hold on to in the middle of the night. I really really miss my ex. And that was part of the story as well. Because I couldn't "see" him in my future didn't necessarily mean he wasn't there. I did see a bunch of other things-- and now I know I've been used at work. I hate that feeling, and it's causing me to be angry or depressed in turn.
On the other hand, they keep telling me not to "overthink" things. I am just so tired of it all.
So-- because I told them to lie to me, that's what they are doing. However, with these experiences, with more and more of what I said coming true (as opposed to just me saying something and them repeating it later, that is not the same thing, I don't care how many times they do it).
What do you need most in this moment? I keep thinking about my ex. Why I shouldn't be here at all.
I don't know how to deal with some of these things anymore. Please, advice. Help. Something.
Do any of you experience intense depression with your clairvoyant abilities? Do any of you take meds to help manage it? Because that really is the only option left to me, and I feel so alone and isolated anymore.