I'm a new member at this page and I want to tell you my story to get some answers on questions I have for years.
I was a very strange and weird kid. I've believed that I had some kind of magic skills and wanted to be a medium or a magician. I don't know if it was just my imagination or not but I remember that I was doing some crazy stuff. I have no relations like shamans/magicians but my mother had unusual "prophetical religion dreams" and a "clinical death".
Now I'm 17 and a year ago I noticed some unusual coincidences in my life. Firstly I didn't pay attention to them but know they are so many and sometimes I think I'm going crazy. Also I'm very intuitive and have deja vu feeling so many times like I've already seen this scene and situation. I feel other people's feelings and have a very strange sense of an aura. Also I heard my name twice when I was falling asleep but I don't know whose voice was that.
Also I have a feeling that I don't belong to this world like there's no place for me in this universe and I need to be somewhere else. Also I often feel that my spirit wants to come out from my body. I can't describe those feelings with words.
Of course I believe in spirits, magic and those stuff. But I know one thing - I don't want to be an ordinary human because when I do routine things like other people do I always suffer.
Now I have a depression and an anxiety and I just want to know what the hell is going on with me. I just want to know why all those things happen to me. Is there someone like me?