Good day everyone!
I am writing this post because I want to share my experiences with you and possibly get some answers or advice.
I must tell you, I don't consider myself a psychic or medium or clairvoyant or anything else but strange things have been happening, since forever.
I've always been interested in paranormal, occult-related things, always been drawn to magic and astrology and things unseen.
My first significant experience happened when I was 13. I was in bed and I couldn't fall asleep so I was literally staring into the darkness.Fast-forward to the moment I had seen her, a girl, at around 13 years old, with dark eyes, black long straight hair and quite a pale face. She was standing in the corner of the room, watching me.
I have reasons to think she might be some kind of guide.I'll explain why in a bit.
So, she was there, half smiling, looking at me and I didn't get scared, but nor did I dare get out of bed.
Then she disappeared.
I felt her presence in the room afterwards but as I said, I did not feel scared at all.
I just felt confused. Who was she? Why was she there?
Well, I think I know the answer to that question.I've read a lot about spirits and spirit guides, even about shadow people.
Maybe it was my imagination, maybe I was dreaming, although I know I wasn't.I couldn't be sleeping when the reason I was up in the middle of the night was precisely because I couldn't sleep.
I had this feeling like I knew her from somewhere and then a name popped up in my head.Ana.
I didn't know any girl named Ana and as a matter of fact I still don't.
But if that was just a dream, how come I meet her again recently, after all these years?
So, back to the present days.
Things got a little more intense in the last 2 months or so.
I had found myself reading about paranormal subjects again, only this time it was like I couldn't stop. I was constantly looking up everything related to ESP and all that.
One one Saturday after a sleepless night because of the full moon, I got up in the morning and thought: I want to meet my spirit guides. If something bad happens, oh well, at least I'd know not to get involved with these things again.
So I had laid in bed and just closed my eyes and tried to empty out my mind.
I focused on my breathing and felt my body relax.
I've seen myself in the back of my mind surrounded by darkness, a white sphere slowly forming around me and I said:" Nothing bad can reach for me, only good things come to me."
Next thing I know, a hand (it's all I saw, like someone was outside a door with his hand sticking out through the door) was lent to me and I took it.
I then, after going through a white tunnel, arrived on a bright green meadow with lots of trees and a lake and with such a clear blue sky. I then see 2 girls. They were around 16-17.
One had curly blonde hair and blue eyes and the other was Ana. Still the same features, just older.
They told me to not be afraid, that I'm safe, that they've always watched over me and been there with me.
I then heard some other voices, like whispering but I couldn't understand what they were saying.
Then I heard a voice telling me to go, that I am not ready to meet them... Whatever or whoever "they " were. I opened my eyes
I felt like a warm hand on my shoulder and felt so peaceful after that.
What do you think that was? A dream? An encounter with my spirit guides?
Now I will tell you things that happen pretty much every few days.
I get a lot of deja-vus
I get these images in my head that occur randomly and last a few seconds in which I see faces or objects, even actions like someone falling for example.
To give you actual examples
I've been woken up at 7 am one day and got one of these images, like a little scene playing in my head with my mother falling on the ice at work while carrying some boxes.
I didn't call her up or anything and when she came home in the evening and said that her back hurts.
I told her: That is because you fell this morning, while you were carrying sone boxes, am I right?
She said 'Yes, how'd you know?'
I just smiled.
I have another one.
I was at the beach and my mother, again, along with my cousin, went swimming. She is afraid of the water but she went quite far from the shore so my cousin could swim.
I couldn't see her from where I was standing.
15 minutes passed, then another 15 minutes and she wasn't coming back.
I get this feeling, like my head was clouded with fear, and I see her slipping on a rock and falling into the water and waves drowning her.
The water wasn't that deep but she couldn't get up because of the waves constantly crashing into her and also she was overwhelmed by fear.
I got into the water immediately and started looking for her.
I couldn't find her.
After a few minutes she came back and I asked her if she slipped and fell into the water and if she was afraid.
She nodded with a confused face.
I told her 'I could feel the fear overwhelming you, don't ever let fear overwhelm you.'
I can also feel when people are sad or upset or if they keep something from me.
For instance, 2 weeks ago I walked into class and immediately got these bad vibes, a sudden sadness coming my way from one of my friends.
I hug her, and ask her if she's alright. She said she's fine.
I asked, "why are you feeling sad? What happened? I know you're not really 'fine'"
She looked at me surprised.
"How'd you know?"
I told her I could feel how she feels.
Furthermore, I have a really strong intuition and I constantly feel like I need to help people.
Like, it's coming from the inside, the need to help people, to make them feel better psychically and physically
I want to become a doctor, always wanted that, and I will become one.
I feel it's my destiny. That is why I am here, on Earth, to heal and to help in any way I can.
What do you think I am? An empath if I can say so, perhaps?
And also, what do you think all these experiences were?
What should I do? I don't want them to stop as they are very useful, but I have to find a way to control these... Abilities if you will, until they overwhelm me.
Thank you for reading my post and please feel free to ask me anything, share your opinion and advice for me if you have any.