Over the past six months I have had four of my closest friends commit suicide on me. I didn't know what to do and it was totally unexpected. I blamed myself for a long while and kept having dreams about them.
One night I had a dream that I was about to plunder off a cliff where they were all watching. I got scared and threw myself out of bed when I saw two figures at the end of my bed. I didn't see faces, but I could see the silhouette perfectly. At first I thought it was my little sisters, but they wouldn't answer when I spoke to them. I started to panic and then one of them just pointed to me and I felt really cold. I began to feel nauseous and wanted to throw up. I was scared so I turned on the lamp next to my bed and the two (I don't know what to call them) left.
It happens on and off since I first saw them in January. It has been switching between 2 and four figures for the past four months. I have been able to feel energies since I can remember, but nothing like this has ever happened and it feels really scary to me at times.
I haven't really been able to get over their deaths and have become extremely depressed. I just want to understand why they are here. I don't feel threatened by them or sense negativity-except the occasional nausea, but I feel like they want something from me. Any advice from anyone. Please help.