The reason I am here now is because recently I have this terrible feeling in the pit of my stomach, and recently things have been getting strange around my house. I thought I may be imagining things but I really don't think so. Hope someone can tell me whether or not I am.
The first time I sensed something before it happened was when I was about 17. We were with family for a BBQ sitting at the dining table. It was winter so the windows and doors were all closed. I heard this sound like wind chimes and felt a breeze. I remember looking at the time and it being 9.00pm. We went home and that night I had trouble sleeping. After eventually falling asleep I awoke at about 12. 55am and walked to the phone and stood in front of it. A minute later it rang and as I picked it up I asked "what's wrong?" without even greeting the caller. Turns out my grandfather had passed away at the same time as the breeze I felt. Before my mother could tell me I burst into tears because I knew already.
The second was when I was around 18, mum and I were driving somewhere and I had this feeling of knots in my stomach. I looked at her and said that we have to go home. We turned around and headed back and as we walked into the door the phone rang. It was my grandmother telling me that my grandfather was in hospital, he had had a minor heart attack. They were living with us at the time. Mum and I were going out for the evening so had we not gone back home we would not have known.
Another instance was when I was pregnant, and had a doctor's appointment. My then fiancee did not want to go to the doctors with me and insisted he had to go to work. Normally I would say okay and go it alone, but this time I was adamant that he had to stay with me and go to work late. I even argued with him. He went anyway, and on the way a ambulance shot in front of the car in front of him. He was okay, but had he listened to me and gone late he would have not been there at that time. I felt bad because I knew I should have pushed him to stay with me at the doctors, I knew something would happen.
Almost done, I swear. The next and second last time was driving home from work. I don't normally change Cds while driving, but this day I was first at the lights at a big intersection. Waiting for the red light, I decided (out of character) to look through the CDs on the seat next to me. It so happened that because I was doing that I was looking down when the light turned green, so didn't go immediately. The car next to me did, and as he did another car came flying down the opposite way and turned, T-boning the car that was next to me. I feel terrible for that person, because had I been looking up, that car would have probably hit and killed me. I would have taken off as the light changed.
The last one was to do with my mum's partner. He was a courier driver. I was at work at my desk and don't normally pay attention to the radio. For some reason I tuned in at the very moment that the traffic presenter was talking about an accident where a van had overturned. I heard it and the first thing I did was pick up the phone to call my mum's boyfriend. I didn't know for sure that it was him, but I just knew it was somehow. I even called everyone else to see if they had heard from him. Turns out it was him, I got the news later that evening. He survived thankfully.
Other things happen like I guess what people are going to tell me, only sometimes though. I almost always know who is on the phone before I answer. I sense strongly that I need to call someone because they need to talk, and they almost always do need to. And I see what I think are spirits in my peripheral vision. When I turn they are gone. I sense them but sometimes can't see them. Just before I fall asleep voices come to mind saying totally random things. And sometimes I have these what feel like highly sensitised dreams where I wake up and see people and they talk or warn me but their warnings are usually cryptic and don't make sense, or where I see someone close to me who has passed away, and it's this feeling that I can't explain of extreme happiness and sadness all together, and I wake up in tears. I feel really overcome with an emotion that I can't explain.
I know I am not crazy, but right now I have the worst case of butterflies of all, it has been there for about a week. I am really tired and have this feeling of dread and sadness. I also seem to be very sensitive to sounds and feelings. Help! I dread something happening to someone close to me that I know will happen and can't prevent.