I always thought I was "special" in some kind of way ever since I was little. It started when I thought I could communicate with God. Of course I was only 4, so in my head I had conversations with him. For a few years after that I kind of got out of the "I think I'm special" stage. Then after I started getting massive headaches and things changed.
The dreams and premonitions first started off as coincidences. Like the whole Deja Vu kind of thing. So I blew them off until they started getting more accurate. I'd have a dream about fighting with someone, and in the next week, it would happen. I had a dream that my best friend and I were watching a dog die, only to find out the next day that my best friend's dog was actually dying. A few days after that I had a dream that a fire or something happened to my school, and two days after there was a bomb scare. I also just claimed them as coincidences. I also started to see and hear things that weren't there (i.e. Shadows, figures, hearing voices). I would wake up in the middle of the night sweating because I felt something shake my bed. I had also felt a hand on my leg when I was 12.
It has come to me that every time I have a really bad headache, I have a prophetic dream. They got the worst when I had dreams about my boyfriend and I breaking up, and we always did the next day. I had dreams about him talking to another girl, and when I'd ask him, it'd be true. My most recent dream that occurred was when I had this dream about some comedian being killed in a tank of sharks. I remember saying in the dream that I liked the guy and he was funny. The next day, my boyfriend and I broke up. As I put the pieces of the dream and reality together, I found that the comedian (representing my boyfriend) had died and I said I liked him and he was funny, meaning that I liked my boyfriend and he was funny, and it was really our relationship that had died.
Anyway, that's where the dreams stopped being coincidences. Everyday now I can feel when he's near me or coming into view, and when I turn around, he's there. I see his apparition and hear his voice when he's not even there. And my premonitions are more current. I'll think of my best friend, and the next thing I know, she's texting me. I'll think of my mom or dad, and then they'll call my name or I'll hear them talking. In school, I know when certain people are around. It's hard to explain, but whenever I get a headache, I have a dream that comes to life. I have one right now, so I'm always excited to fall asleep at night. When I wake up, I try my hardest to remember the dream and see if it'll happen. I've had many experiences that would take too long to write, but I'm just putting the most recent/interesting.
I also just took up meditating, so hopefully this can help me develop these powers that are peeking their way through.
If anyone could help me on this, I'd really appreciate it. I'd love to know if I have a gift or not. Thanks much.