I'm thirteen-years-old and I live in a small town on the boarder of Maine and New Hampshire.
Ever since I was little I knew I was different. My family blamed it on my anti-social behavior on anxiety problems, but I knew there had to be more. I was never nervous around people or scared. I was only confused. I felt things. Things like when I went near another kid with a broken arm my arm would hurt too. When one kid would cry, I would cry. If kids started fighting I joined the fight.
I never really thought anything was wrong with me. I thought it was my anxiety that my parents told me about. But around six months ago one of my closest friends told me to look up the word Empath. I looked it up and found many of the symptoms match what I have, what I feel, and what I do. For example the horrible headaches I get when I'm in a large group of people in a small room, it make me sick and dizzy.
Once I realized what I was I went in to total denial. My friend as I found out was a clairvoyant medium and her mother has psychokinesis. They helped me see that being an Empath wasn't a curse or a gift but both combined.
But lately my main problem is that as time goes on things are getting more difficult. Like now when I touch people it's like receiving an electric shock of emotions and energy. I've also learned that I can feel the future emotions. Like when my neighbor died, I felt his death coming, I felt the sadness and despair of his wife and son months before he died. But strangely once he did die I felt relieved that all the pain was gone and over with.
Everyday the headaches and touching people and just being around people in general gets harder. My family can't help me they don't believe in psychic stuff. So, I'm all alone, I have no idea what's happening to me. My friend who used to be my guidance moved away.
I'm alone, I'm scared, I don't know who to turn to any more. I'm afraid to tell my friends anything in case they judge me and think I'm crazy like my family would. The only other person in my family that's psychic is my Grand Mother and she's dead.
I'm afraid my talent is getting out of had too much because I'm always bringing people's problems onto myself to heal them and I enjoy healing them, but I always get hurt in the process.
What I'm really looking for is for some guidance and help with who I should turn to. Also in my research I came across the grounding and shielding stuff and I'd really like to know how to do that in hopes that it can some how help me.
Thank You So Much.