I've always been good at identifying with people and being able to read people's emotions. I always seem to know when my relationships are over, whether my girlfriend seems to know it or not. I seem to know right away when I meet people whether I'm going to like them or not. I've given up thinking that the last part is my imagination after many, many times being shown correct.
I have deja vu at least three or four times a week, sometimes to the point of knowing when I dreamed the dream that I'm associating the deja vu with. The deja vu feeling sometimes lasts almost half a day.
I grew up thinking that I was bipolar due to the frequent rushes of intense unexplainable emotion. I have recently started reading more and more on being an empath and it seems that the bipolar assumption may have been incorrect. I have noticed that since I started keeping mental notes of when I have these "emotion spikes" that it seems directly connected to the people I'm around and how they're feeling at the given time. If I'm around people with a negative mindset for an extended period of time I go into depression. I have the same type of reaction when around positively minded people with the expected opposite feeling of relief and tranquility. The positive reaction doesn't seem to be as strong but that could be my imagination. The reactions, or at least as far as I had noticed were mostly emotional, up until recently. I can't stand to be around babies when they're crying. I wish I knew the words to convey how troubling this is. I have never had any adverse effects to loud noises. Not even the common nails on a chalkboard, doesn't even phase me.
Lately however, if a baby starts crying in the same house I know it. Even before I hear them. It causes my vision to act funny and makes my brain feel like its going haywire, including intense headaches and severe anxiety. Almost immediately I have a super intense rush of negative emotion, to the point that I can't even formulate reasonable thought, let alone concentrate or be able to continue with whatever it is that I was previously doing. I've been using substances to dull it all down. I know that's the last thing I need to do but I don't know how else to handle it. I guess that's why I'm posting here. Looking for advice or anything that will help. Thank you to everyone that reads this and puts a positive thought forward. I really appreciate it.