As mentioned in my other posts, I began what I believe has been a spiritual journey about a YEAR AGO. I became interested in having OBEs, Channeling, and Psychic Abilities. I also am aware of the power of now, the law of attraction, and the significance of the energy that exists within each of us, and our entire universe. During prayer, and pretty much the majority of my life I have asked for God to guide me down the right path in life, so I can discover who I really am, and what I am destined to do this lifetime. I have also prayed that I would someday find my true soul mate, someone who would love me unconditionally. It was about a YEAR AGO that I met my possible twin flame. Could it be that my soul is sending me down this path because I am meant to find him during this lifetime?
When I first met him, there was an immediate attraction. I was new in town and was a tad shy, so I didn't initiate anything. All night I felt a great tension between us, as if our energies were emerging even though no words were exchanged and we were at opposite sides of the room. When he said goodbye, I noticed I was the only girl in the room who he kissed on the cheek. I got butterflies. I asked my roommate about him, and She told me he had a girlfriend, and she was from out of town, but was flying in to see him the next week. The best part is, he is from the same state I grew up in all my life... Going to college in another state, where I now reside.
The next week he stopped by my apartment with his girlfriend. He took his girlfriend out onto our balcony and was describing the view to her. I listened in shock. I realized that the way he described it (ex: the contrasting colors, how symmetrical the design of the courtyard is), was in a similar manner that I, Myself, was describing to my best friend two weeks earlier, before we even met. We were both describing it in terms that we had learned in art school. I am going to fashion school, and he is an artist going to art school. I called my friend after he left and told her what happened. "Maybe he is your soulmate." she told me.
Anyways, soon enough, he split with his girlfriend, and he and I started a fling. However, this did not last very long, and I didn't pursue it any further because he was leaving to RETURN HOME due to financial circumstances in just a few weeks. During those weeks, we never even exchanged numbers. But we'd somehow end up doing the same things and be together at the end of the night. It was like we both left it up to fate to bring us together. Honestly, I wasn't even concerned about getting his number because I somehow just KNEW we'd end up together. But as the days drew nearer, I asked for his number. So we could spend one last time together. When he left, I guess we kind of left each other hanging. I know the connection was there and I really began to develop feelings for him. But I soon forgot about him, thinking I would probably never see him again.
I was wrong, about 6 months later, rumors circulated that he was back in town. I saw him at a few parties, but I thought he hated me because he never seemed interested enough. I was happy to see him, and all of my attraction was reignited, but I was at the time in a committed relationship for about 2 months prior. So... I didn't initiate anything. Then, he called one night. I was definitely surprised to hear from him, and he seemed surprised that I saved his number. Don't ask me why. We hung out as friends, because even though I was extremely attracted to him, I couldn't lie to him. I told him immediately that I had a boyfriend. He wanted to still hang out as friends, but I didn't think it was fair to put myself in that situation. Not to mention extremely hard. A few weeks later, me and my boyfriend were going through tough times and ended up splitting up. I then pursued my possible twin flame full throttle.
Due to the connection we shared, and the feelings I have for him I did not want to let him get away. However, I soon received some disappointing news that it was now my turn to RETURN HOME... Due to financial circumstances. I left him with nothing but memories of us, and never even told him exactly how I feel about him. I figure that I will let nature take its course, and not force anything to happen. If we are truely meant to be, I know fate will bring us together in the end. And hopefully during this lifetime. But not only that, I have this 'knowing' deep down inside me... That we WILL be together soon. Even if it takes a few years. He is in my heart, and I hopefully am in his.
It wasn't until I came home that I began to wonder about our connection, for without him I felt lost, abandoned, and depressed. He is like no other man I've ever been with. When we first met, I had that shocking moment, where we both described the view the same way. Fate brought us together each time we connected. He had to return home, and now I had to return home. We share the same interests, goals, and beliefs. I am so comfortable around him, I can entirely be myself... For he is just like me. I can look into his eyes without distraction, and see myself in his eyes. When he says my name, I melt like never before. He knows what I am feeling when I am feeling it, and knows how to make me feel even better. Our hearts always beat together when we lay next to each other, and my heart pours out love for him. I often feel like we read each others mind, or finish each others sentences. And even stranger, I feel like sometimes we share the same dreams as we sleep next to each other.
For example, one night I had an OBE, and I could see my body in its current state, and his next to me. I thought to myself, "What time is it?"...he awoke next to me in this dream, and said without even looking at the clock, "It's 3:[something], you can thank my 3rd eye chakra." I didn't even realize I was dreaming until I awoke in real life wondering what time it was. I asked him, as kind of a test. He told me it was 10 am. Could it be that we were both in each other's dream, and he was able to tell me the correct time at the correct moment in the dream? I also had a dream that he proposed to me, and he was sleeping right next to me. It felt so real and I awoke crying, he was smiling in his sleep. In other dreams, I would wake up to him talking in his sleep, and it was like he was answering to me.
In the strangest dream I can recollect when we spent the night together, I was actually having a nightmare. I dreamt that strange beings, and demons were coming into the room. At the time, I was sleeping at the edge of the bed and he was against the wall. I remember thinking for some reason, "I wish I was sleeping against the wall", as if I would be safer from them. Each time a demon would try to attack me, I wouldn't be able to do anything without my twin flame's help. He would tell me what to do. Like..."go into the light." The final being that came into my dream wasn't evil or malicious like the others. It was a figure glowing blue and white light. I thought it was Jesus for it had long hair, and a robe or dress. It was holding a round symbol in its hands that made me rethink if it was really Jesus or not. At that moment, my twin flame awoke. He told me to sleep against the wall.
Like I said, I started wondering about our connection when I returned home. I began researching soul mates, and never even knew the definition of a twin flame until now. It seemed that all the "symptoms" of finding your twin was found in him. In addition, synchronicity, such as looking at the clock at 11:11, 10:10, 3:33, etc. Happen frequently. In a book I read, I opened up to an image of the "creation of twin flames". It showed the steps of the splitting of the soul, and then reuniting with ones twin. The reunion of the souls into one depicted a male and female figure, each holding a round symbol that greatly resembled what I had seen in the dream. Could it be that the figure in my dream was the feminine aspect of our souls merging? I later stumbled upon a youtube video when researching "twin flame" which GREATLY resembled the female figure I saw in this dream. I have attached a link.
I might mention 2 other things. As a young adult, I had a poetry book in which I wrote the qualities of my future husband. I recently stumbled upon this book and realized I had described him, in every way. Also, in a conversation I had with him about the first time we had sex, he seems to think that it was BEFORE we even talked. I know for a fact that this was not true and I told him he was probably dreaming. But he seemed to stick with his story and make me think I had forgotten, even though I keep telling him, "how could I forget?!" Could it be that he actually did dream of me before we met, couldn't remember if it was a dream or not and felt weirded out by it so concocted this whole story of how he thought it had happened?
As you can see, strange occurrences like these are abundant, leading me to believe that our relationship is out of this world. Now, we keep in touch through facebook, or texting... But I hope someday we will be together. Twin flame, or not.
I need your input as to whether or not he could actually be my twin soul? Or am I just obsessed with him, and the thought?