My name is Amber. I had asked here for help with an issues I had. Let me start by telling you little about myself. I am an empath. I have had my gift from very young. I did not know that I had my gift until last year in November. I had went through a very bad depression and no anti-depression medicine would help. I finally went to see someone and got a book about being ultra sensitive. I moved out of the house I leaved in. I instantly felt better when I moved out. I realized it was my roommate feeling those emotions. After I built up my defenses now I very rarely feel any real strong emotions. I want to feel them strongly when I want to, but now I only do it in my dreams. Which leads us to why I am writing to you. I would have dreams that are powerful.
After New Orleans, I had a very powerful dream. I had a dream where I was there with a group of people in someone that was me, but to others was someone they know. I felt the feelings of the person who I was, but it wasn't me. I don't know how to explain any better. I woke up and cried for an hour and a half. It was hard to catch my breath. I had met a little girl and her father in my dream that I can never forget. After I closed myself off now I can't fully dream and connect with people in my dreams. It makes me unhappy and unfulfilled.
The other week I had a breakthrough, but I was not completely asleep yet and this was different. I was in the trance kind of sleep where you no longer hear outside noises, but I could still feel in between both worlds. I have good control in my dreams. I can wake when I want and go back to the same dream when I want. Back to when I was sleeping. I started to switch to a deeper sleep and at the time I heard the most frightening thing. I heard a bunch of voices all talking at once. I couldn't understand them because they were all talking to me fast and at the same time. I was so frightened that I woke myself up and waited for a little while before going back to sleep.
As soon I slipped back in the time (I am guessing) when I was open to the universe I heard them again. It was only until I turned on the TV to block out my mind from focusing that I could sleep. It happen that way for three nights until I prayed for God to only have good spirits around and to stop them from scaring me that I haven't heard from them. There is something upsetting to me now. I feel like I shouldn't have told them to go away. I want them to come back. I don't believe they were bad just I wasn't ready for them. I wish I could of had only one come to me. I might have still been scared. I feel kind of lonely with them gone. I don't know why and it makes no sense to me why I would be lonely without them.
Any advice you can give me I will take and appreciate a lot. If you can tell me how to have them come back, maybe not all at once I would like it. I can feel them sometimes still but it isn't the same. I know that I am not crazy, even if my doctor's nurse said I should see a crazy doctor. As soon as the nurse heard I prayed and they left, she said it was Satan. I know that wasn't it. How can she believe in Satan attacking me, they're spirits who want to talk to me. That's why I need help from someone who knows that I am not crazy.