Hi, I am currently 15 years old and I know this may seem childish or juvenile, but to this day I am still afraid of the dark, or rather, what's in the dark. You see, it's like every time I turn off the light to go to sleep, or every time I'm alone in a dark room it's like someone is watching me, or sometimes it feels like there's someone right behind me. Or when I'm lying in my bed it feels like there's someone sitting beside my bed just starring at me and it's very disconcerting. When I was a child I used to see things, and I think they were spirits and they used to terrify me to the point where I'd be afraid to move, it was somewhat traumatizing. This may be why I feel this way. I've also experienced what some call sleep paralysis which is also quite horrifying.
Lately I've been trying to reconnect with my psychic abilities and open myself, connect with my spirit guides stuff like that but I just can't shake this uncontrollable fear I have. I've heard people say that I shouldn't fear ghosts and I should fill myself with love and stuff but I can't shake the fear. Come to think of it, this fear is probably what suppressed my abilities to start with. I mean I haven't seen a ghost since I was a child but I have had dreams come true, and weird coincidences where I'll think of something and someone will say it word for word. And I'm a pretty good guesser and this one experience where I was woken up by a loud sort thump and then I heard a voice say, "What do you need?" or "Did you need something?" and I could kind of feel something in the room but that's about it. I have yet to be as receptive as my mother though. It probably doesn't help that I'm a naturally jumpy person to begin with but it's like the slightest touch from someone, or the littlest noise can send me shooting in the air.
So how do can I get past these fears so that I might reconnect with my abilities, and how do I know it's not just all in my head?