For many years I've been in numerous experiences. Sometimes, I would ignore what I see-hear-feel and believe that just anybody was like me. When I would tell people, they would say "Oh, all women have that. You're not any different. It's called intuition and sensitivity."
Other times, I would believe in what I see-hear-feel and wonder "How am I going to get stronger at this? Are there others out there? What are those things that I see and feel?"
Here are my experiences:
1. I get EXTREMELY overwhelmed with the negative emotions of others.
When I see-hear my family argue (Specifically My Mother, her brother and their father arguing together) I FEEL SO OVERWHELMED.
Once, I had to do some driving to the city where we were going to go shopping.
My mom, her brother and their father were all in the vehicle with me. I have to say that that was one of the most powerful negative energies that I've ever felt. I wanted to burst out crying and run out of the vehicle all the back to our home. I pleaded with my mother to drop my Uncle off back home because I knew a very bitter argument was brewing, but she reassured me that they wouldn't argue. That drive to the city was incredibly scary for me because of the anger, betrayal, hate, and many other negative emotions I felt in there (even though they were quiet, I felt like their emotions were bursting from the seams.)
This is just one of the stories. When I get overwhelmed with negative emotions, I get "cranky" and angry at them for feeling that way. The worst is actually crying from the emotions, because it's like it's pouring out of me.
2. I can sense very evil-bad people and very good-hearted angelic people.
When I was around 12-14, my ability to feel other's feelings and feel it myself was very strong. At that time, I was also full of anger towards a lot of people because of their emotions and how they were friends and close to bad people (I thought other people sensed things like me, so I wondered why they were friends with bad people even though they knew it).
One time, my Auntie (she was about 19) and her boyfriend would come by our house a lot. I absolutely hated her boyfriend because he gave me such an evil feelings that I just wanted him OUT of the house. However... He didn't look or act evil. My family loved him because he was "funny" and "Hilarious", but I NEVER laughed at what he said. My family would tell me to stop being so "snobby" towards him, but I would tell them that there's something about him that I don't like.
Months to a year later my Auntie phoned my mom and told her that her boyfriend had hit her and threw an angry fit in front of their son. When we went there, I saw him leave the apartment with his "true" look on his face - it was the look and feelings that he always gave me.
That day I told my mom that "I told you he was like that. I always sensed that." They said I was right and learned to believe me when I sensed things.
3. I see-hear-feel shadows, "auras" of beings, and spirits.
A. One time, I was in my room studying until I was hit with a big sense of "evil" and I began to panic. But I stayed where I was, because I wanted to see what was happening. A few seconds later, I saw a child with its back to my wall and knees curled in to its body, it was wearing light clothes. I heard it laughing and I immediately ran to my sister half crying and laughing. I told her what I saw-felt-heard and we went back to my room. We talked about it and joked... Then we both sensed that "evil" again so we stopped joking about it.
B. I've had good feelings with spirits, many were very nice. However, like in the example before, that one gave me panic and a sense of evil.
C. Another time was when I was sleeping with my little sister because she was scared. I couldn't fall asleep in that bed because of the senses of strong auras I felt in there. As I was laying down, I heard footsteps of someone leaving the room, so I looked up and saw this blond long haired 7-ish year old girl walking fast towards the door. I panicked and looked back down, listening for the footsteps, but I didn't hear any. After that I felt this strong (black, evil) aura beside my bed. I was shaky after that, but eventually fell asleep.
D. Like I am wary and uncertain about the spirits-feelings in my sister's room, she is the same way in my room.
She said once that she saw that my closet's roof seemed to go on forever. She knelt on the ground to see if should could see the roof in my closet, but my wall kept going on and on. When she got up and knelt down again, she could see the roof.
Another time was when children's hands were sticking out my closet waving at her. It scared her. But it didn't do anything to me. I didn't see. I'm pleased and used to the spirits in my room... Only sometimes being scared of the evil ones.
4. Last night, I was talking with my sister last night outside in our backyard. The sun had already set, but the sky was blue-dark blue. We were talking about our past experiences.
My sister started to see lights coming under us and going out, coming under us and going out... Over and over again. I didn't see, but I believed her. Then I started seeing flashes of light in some places, she also saw that same ones. Then I started to see shadows flash past me and flash this and and that - in colors of black, dark blue, blue, white, and gray. They were going everywhere. This was the first time that I saw this much shadows at once, and so up close. After we watched for a little bit, I started to talk about gifts and how some people can see-feel-hear things. I said that I wanted to get stronger.
My sister then looked at me and said that lines and lights were going inside of me.
I don't know what all this meant, but it was definitely different.
5. I think that what I'm about to tell you right now is important.
This happens when some of family goes for a grocery shopping trip or a shopping trip and I'm home alone or home with one of my siblings.
I'm sitting in my room, dining room, or living room and I swear that I HEAR THEM walking on our sidewalk path, walking up the stairs, talking to each other and walking through the door.
Sometimes I even hear the vehicle's doors open and shut while sensing them walking towards the door. I run to the door or the window to see if they're here, but they're not. I feel a little "weird" after that and wonder what just happened. Then, a few seconds to minutes later they actually get home repeating what I hear and sense.
They don't call me beforehand to tell me they're almost home, so it's not as if I know for sure that they are coming home
I'm actually quite pleased with that happening because sometimes I think that "they're" just telling that my family is coming home.
Conclusion. Can someone relate to this? Does anyone know or feel anything about my experiences? I have many questions!