Am I an empath? That's the question I kept asking myself. I've other people's articles and their lives describing empathy and I also read from other sites. Still, I never found the answer I'm looking for, and that's why I'm here, publishing my own story.
When I was 6, I started feeling my friend's emotions, but only what they feel for me. When one of my friend's said that her drawing looks ugly, I also said it was ugly because she said it herself. Then, my heart starts pumping and I feel like like I was scared because I was hated and by her. The next thing happened was her face looks gloomy and started whispering to her other friend about me.
As I grew, (probably 10-11 something) I felt what other people felt to others. When we were praying (I'm a christian), my eyes are wide opened and so is my friend's. She looked at our teacher who's praying and scowled at him. I felt her hatred and anger.
I'm 13 now and when I look at others and their happiness in groups, I feel like drained, as if they took away all my energy from me. I always thought this was jealousy because they belong in "high groups" and I don't, but I'm not sure.
Most of the above are about hatred and anger, but that counts, right? So am I an empath or is this just my instinct? But even if this is other than empathic, I want to learn and improve it.
My email: firstname.lastname@example.org