Ever since I posted my "how can I control my gift" I started meditating, like people kept telling me to. It wasn't having any effect until a few days ago, but it's the opposite of what I expected. I practice tai-chi, and unlike the last few times I practiced.
I felt "empty" so to speak, it felt as if I couldn't use my chi, I tried and tried but I couldn't even move it to my hand. But when I meditate I can feel my energy growing stronger and stronger.
Today when I meditated I had no control of my thoughts, and I was trapped in my head, it was like I was watching a movie. I saw myself running to this huge dome, when I got to it I opened the door but I couldn't get in. I could actually feel something holding me out.
I've been sensing spirits more often as well, and I don't understand it but they seem to be attracted to me as I meditate. It's been scaring me a bit and I can sometimes see them through my eyelids if that makes any sense.
So what is happening? Why can I feel my energy growing but can't seem to use it? Why was I trapped inside my own mind, and what why couldn't I get in if it was just my mind? Why are spirits coming to me when I meditate I don't understand what is going on please help me before I lose my mind!