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Weird Feeling I'm Not Who I'm Supposed To Be


Ever since I was a kid I've wondered who I was. What I mean is, I have this weird feeling I'm not who I am suppose to be. As a kid I have 3 memories that don't add up one bit, they are all dreams. At least I think they're a dream.

I'm walking with my mom and brother, we're in this giant wasteland. I was happy and playing around so much, my mom and brother were emotionless. We walk up to this giant blue "Portal" in the ground and when I jump in I wake up, but that day.

I remember asking my siblings who they were, where I was and who I was. I felt as if I was missing out on something, as if I changed.

The second memory is again when I'm a kid, I'm climbing a bookshelf and it fell on me. I died. A shelf snapped my neck. I can remember dying so clearly I could even feel the pain of everything hitting me, something hit my eyebrow. I couldn't tell what it was but... When I woke up I was in my bed. But I looked in the mirror and noticed I have a scar on my right eyebrow.

The third memory is when I'm a teenager, it's when my abilities first started to manifest (with me noticing), I started seeing glimpses of the future in my dream (I have precognition), and I had this vision I was, in bed with my wife doing things.

Anyway, I was watching outside from a window wondering what was happening. Then someone grabbed me my shoulder and turned me around, and when I looked it was me, only a more serious, and angry looking version, he was way stronger than me I could tell just by looking. He felt like he was a part of me I left behind. He asked me and in a very rude tone I might add. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!?" He let me go and I "Flew" into the sky into and woke up.

Ever since then my abilities have been growing and shrinking, dying down when I want them to work, but getting explosive results when I don't, recently and I don't know why, but I've been drowning myself in comic books, and tv shows. When I watch and read them (and I know this sounds stupid) I feel like I'm missing something, a part of me that's been taken or that I'm longing to go to a place I've long since forgotten. But I summarize that down to just envy, that thing's go their way and seem to suck for me.

But it feels like I'm missing a piece of me but I KNOW, I'm not. I'm all here I've been this way, since I can remember, these feelings about me missing something are confusing me, as I know losing a piece of yourself is not possible. I don't know why and I can't explain why I feel this but can someone please help?

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onceagain (2 posts)
10 years ago (2013-11-21)
I know it's been more than 3 years, but i'd really like to know how you're doing suitonryu. Did you find the answers you were looking for?
AnandaHya (guest)
13 years ago (2010-12-23)
demon attacks check out my profile for advice or just email me. Clupt012 [at]

Just pray to whatever deity you believe in or imagine a shield of white light protecting you from all evil things. You can also study up on it. Knowledge is Power.
Believer2012 (1 stories) (13 posts)
13 years ago (2010-12-22)
I get the same feeling too. Sometimes it gets so strong I start having a mental breakdown.
suitonryu (4 stories) (13 posts)
13 years ago (2010-11-04)
Thats a very interesting theory, it would be nice if that were the case. It would explain a lot and help me understand things a bit better.
Chetyre (guest)
13 years ago (2010-11-03)
For "Taffyinky"
There is a difference between "instinct" and "intuition".

Instinct is predetermined actions a living being takes as part of its survival such as the instinct for a wolf to hunt in packs or a baby kitten instinctively finds the nipple on mommy cat so it can nurse.

Intuition is a supposed "knowing" or feeling derived from sources other than conscious observation.

I don't mean to be nit-picky but sometimes the two terms are used interchangeably.

Anyways... For "Ryu" it is possible that you may have had glimpses into a past life while the others "could" have been encounters in parallel dimensions.

As for the scar on your head... It may be that you fell out of bed and hit your head on something while sleeping and climbed back into bed without knowing it. (Happened to me once)

However I have heard theories of "multi-dimensionality" where it is theorized that we live not just this life we are aware of but a few other lies simultaneously.

It is theorized that sometimes we catch glimpses of it in dreams and sometimes we may even have odd thoughts said to be influenced by these multiple lives. is just a theory and I am not saying this as an absolute.
taffyinky (4 stories) (108 posts)
13 years ago (2010-11-03)
From what I have personally experienced, you should trust your instincts. I think they come from a higher sorce than you do (Sorry if this insulted anyone!) and that you should follow them.
suitonryu (4 stories) (13 posts)
13 years ago (2010-11-02)
They feel as if they are of another life, but I don't normally believe in past lives...
taffyinky (4 stories) (108 posts)
13 years ago (2010-11-02)
To me it sounds like you have had past lives and can somewhat remember them.

Does it feel as if they are actual memories of this life or a past one? Try to get a sense of your past lives and see if its apart of that. You might have left unfinished business and returned for that, explaining why you feel as you do.

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