First, hi to everyone, second, I need some advice on something that has been happening to me for the past 3 years, or at least I have only been noticing for the past 3 years. To start I have always felt like I have had a gift of some sort, I have never been able to exactly pinpoint what exactly, but I suppose from a young age I have known I was different and I suppose I have always made excuses for it never really asking why! I have been to psychics all of which have said I have a gift, one saying I always know... Simple just know things, however I let my emotions get in the way, another said that when I'm ready he would like me to come back and do a reading for him... Which I thought was straight because I haven't the foggiest idea how.
Anyway getting to my experience, which started 3 years ago, I'd be asleep but I'm wide awake and I can see the room, which is strange because its pitch dark and my eyes are closed, but the room is gray and I can see everything, then I start floating from my body, my hands are always first... At this stage fear sets in and I have to force myself to wake up, I told my mother about this and she said it also happens to a younger cousin of mine. So this is now 3 years on and I have lost count of how many times its happened now, it comes at its own accord, strange thing is it seems to get more frequent just before something happens!
Ive never actually left my body because I always will it to stop, sometimes I say to myself ok let it happen and just see, but fear always gets the better of me and I have only ever let my arms and legs float. The last time it happened was my most frightening... It seems to get stronger and stronger each time, and its more like a pulling than a floating. My last experience seemed to go on for the whole night, I couldn't stop it all I could do was fight it, but then I heard voices... It seemed or felt evil, if that's the best way to describe it, and felt like it was jeering me in some way. I know it sounds strange and believe I know its hard to believe all this, I have been trying to ignore it for 3 years now and its time to face the music. I have done a bit of research on astral travel the past 2 days, but I have never been able to control when this happens, sometimes if I think it before I sleep it will come on. Can someone please explain all this... I might add when this first started happening, someone came to me with a message from my granddad saying I have no need to be scared they are only trying to protect me! I'm at a stage now I'm no longer scared and I'm ready to understand this. Your advice on this is very much appreciated and sorry for not keeping this short.