Hi everyone! I'm nineteen years old, and have been reading all the wonderful advice you have been giving others, on this site, and I was wondering if you could extend this to me? This is kind of long, so I'm sorry...
All of my life, I have noticed all these "weird" things happening... Like when I was young, I began to notice that I would have these weird "hunches" about people, and I have always been correct. For instance, growing up, my mother's best friend and her husband would always come over. Now, the husband was my father's very best childhood friend. He gave me NO reason to dislike him. He was always kind and polite and pleasant to me. He was a seventh degree black belt in Karate and when I took Karate later on, he gave me a Gi (A uniform) and these wooden weapons that he taught me how to use. He was also an artist and used to draw me these beautiful pictures.
For some odd reason I NEVER liked him. There was just something about him I didn't like. I never told my father because he was his very best friend. Whenever he would come into the house, I would immediately retreat into my room, and feel these weird vibes... There was SOMETHING I didn't like. Well, a few years later he wound up cheating on his wife, then leaving her suddenly after twenty years of marriage, sponging money off his family and taking up with a prostitution ring after running away to taiwan. My parents were completely shocked... I wasn't.
I get these hunches with places... For example, when I was about eleven, and I met a new friend for the first time. Her family seemed really nice and fun, and she was really cool. However, whenever I went to her house, I would feel horrible things. I would feel tense, angry, upset and even sometimes physically sick to my stomach. I never knew why. The minute I would leave, I would feel better. Instantly. Come to find out her family was a lot more messed up than I thought. I don't want to get into much detail, but there were A LOT of very bad problems, that she didn't tell us about.
These are just two of the many examples I could give. This basically happens all the time. I will walk into someone's house and get a feeling of anger, or worryness or sadness... Only to find out something bad had happened. And it also happens all the time for people... For instance I will be talking to a complete stranger at work, and I will feel a stab of anger or sadness or happiness completely unrelated to what I've been doing at the time. Or I will just look at my mother and go "What's wrong?" even though she looks perfectly happy at the time. She get's annoyed with me, but I persist and she will usually tell me what is wrong.
It's getting more intense now though, and that's why I want the advice. It's like I can't control my feelings. For instance, I will be at work, and I will encounter someone, a stranger who is so bad and invoke such bad feelings in me, that it ruins my entire day. They don't even have to say anything, and I feel so angry or sad... I could be having a grand day, then I encounter one of these people and bam... with a glance, my day is down the toilet. Or I can walk into a room, and be overcome with anger... All of a sudden... Then I leave, and I feel instantly okay again.
Can anyone tell me, what's going on with me? ANY advice would be GREAT!