Since I was young, I have developed a sense of talking to myself. At least, I thought I was talking to myself. Then, I realized that if I really was, I would be doing it on my mind. It was just a hobby of saying "Hi" and then it developed to actual conversation starters like "what are you doing here" or "Are you starring at me?".Sometimes I would randomly just laugh as if somebody told a joke or I could feel that someone is warning me. For example, every time I walk alone I get this hunch to not turn to a certain corner or not to talk to a certain person. Actually, having a feeling that I should not talk to specific people is logical to me since I am an empath and I could usually feel if it is a bad time. However, there are moments that I do not think it is coming from my empathic ability but rather as an opinion from someone else.
I got busier and busier each day due to school. Often, I would not even notice these kind of stuffs anymore. Although every time I work alone (I hate working alone at night because of this) I feel like somebody is watching me. It does not feel harmful but it is strange, and of course, anything strange is automatically feared. In desperation of having a company, I bring my cats with me. They only made situations worse because they would look to an area near me, usually beside me, and that creeps the day light out of me.
Even when I am in the rest room, I feel like someone is with me. These days, I talk and say, "You know what You can show yourself anytime and talk to me anytime except when I'm in the toilet or taking a shower because that will just scare me and I would probably do something stupid"
Also, every time I walk from the bus stop to our house, I feel that it is with me. I try to communicate daily but I would not get direct answers. On the contrary, yesterday afternoon, I was in the garage with the lights off and I closed the door accidentally. It turned really dark and I got super scared. I asked if it was there in a panic and said "Please be here with me, I'm really scared".I felt something touched my shoulder for 5 seconds and removed it gently after. Later, I tried to reenact if it was just my hair or something else but there was no proper explanation.
If it is a spirit or anything beyond this world, why is it not talking to me? I would like to know his/her name at least. What ever it is, it knows how much I would like to get in contact.
PS: Want to know something funny? I know that it knows that I am talking about him/her right now (lol).
Thank you guys =)