Hey there everybody! I read some stories in this site about psychic experiences of some people and I feel a little relieved that I'm not the only one experiencing all this!
Well, let me begin it from the very start! I was around 5 years old, and my mom had to stay in a hospital for few days because she had an operation. I had never stayed away from my mother for more than a few hours until then! I was really scared to go to sleep alone in my room! Right from childhood days iv been fascinated by 'Hanuman' - an Indian God! Not just fascinated- I really felt that he listens to me and gives me solutions! That night, I was lying down in bed and I was really scared. I closed my eyes and started praying. Suddenly I felt a rush and started feeling warm and good. When I turned around I saw 'him' lying next to me! He had an aura of light around him. It seemed as if he was glowing! Even recalling that experience makes my hair stand straight! When I told this story to my parents- they called it a childish fascination- but I know very well that its true! Even now, when I'm in trouble and I feel there's no hope for me, I close my eyes and I can hear him give me solutions! And they work every time without fail!
And there's another problem with me. I don't know if it's a power or not. But the thing is- I can make things happen! For example- when I'm deeply hurt by a person, I feel really angry with him and the next day, something bad happens to him! This has happened many times! I get totally freaked out and I try my best to control my temper! But sometimes I lose it and something bad happens to them! The same way, when I want something good to happen to a person, if I close my eyes and pray hard, focus on the good that I want to make it happen for that person, it REALLY happens!
When I really badly want something to happen- it does really happen! For example I wanted a particular phone really badly. And my uncle gifted it to me unexpectedly! I have got many things this way... My laptop, my college grades, dresses and everything! If I have not finished an assignment and I want that teacher to be absent- that class somehow does not happen.
Sometimes I get totally freaked out by this! I'm scared of myself. I don't want anything bad to happen to anyone because of me. What should I do?