This started when I was young. The time I had my first freaky dream was when I was seven. I was kneeling in a long, dark room, right in front of something or someone made of pitch black shadow darkness. I think I said something about obeying and heard the voice say "dictation" in my subconscious and I woke up, remembered I had dictation. The words were very difficult and I hadn't practiced, but I knew all of them. That is just so scary. When I was eight, I started drawing symbols and things like that. I tried to tell my mother, but she just laughed and told me that I needed therapy. Nine years old, I could sense auras and had dreams that came true. Those visions were different than the other dreams... The visions were more vivid, more colorful, and they were only images of objects, places or people I was going to see or use or meet. Now, I can channel energy in my palms, predict the future by quotes. The quote just pops into my head suddenly, I scrawl it down and the next day, it happens. For example, crazy stuff like this:
HATH NO MERCY UPON THY ENEMY
ANGELS MUST FALL.
SHE SEES NOT THE LIGHT BUT THE BRINGER OF LIGHT.
NO MATTER HOW BRIGHT THE GLOW IS, THERE'S ALWAYS A SHADOW.
LISTEN WITH YOUR EARS BUT NOT YOUR HEART
I also write dark poetry, for some reason. And sometimes, my memories go blank and afterward, my friends stare at me like I'd just freaked out over nothing. They said that I just got randomly pissed off, but I had no idea what, why, how or when I got mad. I can connect with peoples' minds easily, but once it's connected, I find it very hard to shut the connection. I can do two people at maximum at the same time. By connecting, I mean reading, which is just plain scary. By looking at somebody's palm, I can see their entire personality- but all this has negative effects.
I always feel like I'm being watched or followed- like somebody was watching over my shoulder, but when I spin back, nobody's there. It happens usually when I'm alone, but sometimes in a crowded classroom of friends, a prickly sensation tickles my neck- I spin back -nothing. Sometimes at night, I hear screaming- a long, high pitched scream- then it's cut off suddenly. My Christian friend says I might be possessed... Because my family has had shade encounters before.
My aunt was once possessed by a... A spirit. She was mumbling nonsense, and when my great grandmother pressed the top part of her middle finger, and she started screaming and yelling and shouting. My great grandmother then made this potion for her and made my aunt drink it. Then, she went back to normal and had no idea what had happened.
My younger brother- once he had food poisoning when he was two, so the current maid we had brought him to the hospital and stayed overnight. The hospital had shut down, and it was eleven thirty, more or less. Then, the maid said she saw an old lady emerge out of the bathroom and disappear.
I'm so scared. My grandmother has a pimple like thing sticking in the middle of her forehead- right where the chakra third eye is. And she's always telling me to cut my fringe- saying that the fringe blocks my extra sight, but I had a feeling she wasn't talking about blindness. My grandmother was talking about the Sight, my predictions. I didn't know how she knew about that, since I didn't tell anyone. I can also guess perfectly who was going to go bankrupt in a betting game, but sometimes I use all the energy up and the negative effects jump in. You can tell me that a crystal under my pillow will help- not. I tried that already. It took away all my prediction powers, leaving me feeling empty- but at the same time, the negative effects disappeared. I'm so scared. I need somebody who understands how I'm feeling right now. What I predict will either come out completely true or completely the opposite. Somebody- anybody- give me some advice to control this dark power. I don't like the negative effects, but I can't live without the positive effects. My eyes and personality are different from my family. People always say that I don't look like my parents. There's something wrong with me- I just know it- and I don't belong in this place. When I tell somebody all this, they turn away from me, leave for somewhere else or they get sick. Virgin Mary, mother of the Holy Spirit, protect me from dangers at all times. Amen.