I'm usually a pretty logic driven person and a skeptic when it comes to the paranormal but for some reason I've always kept my mind open to the idea of energies of the spirits of people who've passed. I'm not terribly sure whether I'm imagining things or accidentally freaking myself out, or if what I feel is real so I thought I'd put it out there and ask others what they think.
I'm pretty sure that I've been experiencing this since I was a kid but it seems to have changed and/or gotten stronger as I've gotten older. It doesn't happen every time, but when I walk into a room or building I can feel different atmospheres (for want of a better word) that range in intensity. It has influenced my choices in renting houses and choosing workplaces. I work in health care and when applying for new jobs and taking a tour of the place I can usually tell within seconds which ward I want to work in based on how they feel to me - this is before I even talk to anyone who actually works there or is in there as a patient.
The fainter 'atmospheres' tend to be the more positive energies that either feel peaceful/benign or energetic/happy. The strong ones tend to be negative vibes. A particularly memorable one happened a couple of years ago the first time I walked into the laundry of a rental house (housed in a separate building from the main house) we'd just moved into and the air felt so oppressive it was like carrying a heavy weight on my head and shoulders. It felt violent and angry. At the same time there was a very faint feeling of?fear. It happened every time I walked in there to the point that I would avoid going in there unless I absolutely had to. I remember dragging my partner at the time in there and trying to explain that it felt wrong, that something bad had happened in there. Somehow, I have no idea how, but I managed to define that it wasn't a death but felt like someone had been violently assaulted. I was never able to substantiate if this was true or not. I had a pagan friend at the time who talked about using cleansing sticks at her home, and I thought 'it's worth a try' and improvised my own and used it to 'will' the energy to leave. Whether it was in my head or real, the energy changed from then on and most days it was slightly 'heavy' but neutral, on occasion it was, well the best words I can use to describe it is oppressive and gloomy.
On the very rare occasion I watch programmes based on investigating hauntings using psychics and detecting equipment, and on a couple of occasions movies or programmes based on supposed real events I always develop almost instantly an intense ominous tingling that moves up my spine and spreads over my back and up to my head, feel like that the temperature has dropped a degree or two and get this intense repetitive thought that almost feels like it doesn't come from me, always the exact same words "they're messing with things they shouldn't be messing with." These sensations usually last for about half an hour after I've changed the channel/ turned it off. In the past couple of years whenever this has happened I see either a sickly yellow or a black shape or cloud moving on the periphery of my vision, always to my right side. Usually when I look directly at it it disappears, but recently it has blurred and faded in colour almost like looking through smoked glass, but is still there. What really freaks me out is the fact that my cats stare at the same place in their 'on alert'/'neighbourhood cat is trying to sneak into the house' pose. At the same time, sporadically, speakers that are on idle have produced short bursts of static, lights have flickered, or I've had to look round the house to check the radio isn't going because I hear a faint background noise that sounds like a person talking a couple of rooms away.
Being pretty 'of-fay' with health conditions, I know this is not a mental illness and I have no medical condition that explains these 'symptoms'. Regarding the laundry experience, I wasn't the only one who felt it - another friend flatly refused to enter it after the first time saying it felt "creepy."
So, my questions: am I just over-sensitive to being freaked out by scary movies/TV shows; am I connecting all these feelings/experiences illogically when they're all isolated and I'm imagining things?; or is there something actually to this?