When I was 11 I remember having a terrible gut feeling that something terrible was going to happen to my mom. I wouldn't let her go anywhere without me, I would scream and cry if she left and call her until she answered and promised to return immediately. I refused to sleep in my own bed, and slept next to her bed on the floor. My dad thought I had serious issues and wanted to get me professional help. I would follow her all over the house, cry randomly, and tell her something was wrong with her. This lasted about a year. Then my mom fainted and went to the hospital where she found out she had a extremely rare brain tumor that would cause immediate death. My mom had brain surgery and now has trouble remembering little things but is ok. The day she got scheduled for the surgery I felt normal. I didn't follow her or cry anymore. I could sleep in my own bed again, I didn't even cry when she went into surgery. It felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. I'm 18 now and I get these intense feelings when people in my family are sick.
I have had some experiences when I will meet someone for the first time and I feel something say stay away and I will physically feel sick. People tell me I am very beautiful but I never fit in school. I was always on the outside, I would date the popular guys but I would never want to hang out with their group of friends. Even with dating popular boys, a lot of times I would sit alone at lunch. My boyfriend in high school would have huge parties and he convinced me to come a few times. Each party I feel an overwhelming feeling of sadness and loss that I can't explain. Everyone looks like they are having fun drinking, hooking up, dancing but I look at them and feel like my heart breaks for them. I just thought of this.
Back in high school in my freshman math class I usually read my book when I got done with my homework but that Friday was different. I remember just staring at this kid in my class who I had talked to a little but we were not really friends. I just could not stop staring at him and I remember feeling like he was happy but also feeling sad at the same time. At first I thought I was checking him out but I had known him for almost a year and never thought of him like that. I just could not stop looking at him. That day after school he died.
I feel like I'm crazy... Please help me! And if you think I do, any ways to make it stronger? Someone said they thought I could feel auras?
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