How do I know what elements I'm able to control? I have never feared any element and I want to know which one am I strongly agreeable with. So here's a little story I want to share with you guys.
Ok I was in a car a month ago and there was a thunderstorm. I have always thought that they were amazing things to look at. (Lightning). I have always wondered if I could control lightning. I love looking at it and out of anything else lightning actually calms me down enough and I could literally fall asleep in a minute or two. Other than that I have always found lightning "attractive" I guess you could say cause it always drew my attention towards it. Sometimes I feel like I control a little bit of lightning in me I just haven't found it yet. The reason I say this is because sometime in November of last year, my brother and I were throwing a rubber ball at each other. Well he threw it and he said that "I moved so fast that I almost made an illusion." "I could have sworn I hit you but the ball bounced off the cabinet behind me." I started thinking if I was able to control or "awaken" it in me and use it for good and not evil. I have been meditating and have gotten an increase in energy and that is it. I want to open my whole body to where I can have the ability to control my energy. My meditation has helped me a lot because I don't get angry often anymore. I wish I could learn the key steps to unlocking my true self and able to keep it a secret from anyone close to me because I don't want them to get hurt and I don't want to hear their reasons. God has something planned for me and I don't know what it is yet. I have had dreams of me controlling the earth fire and air. Just no water. I don't understand why though. But there is a reason. All of my dreams are realistic and are all of the future and past but none of them present.
Also before I forget I had gotten so angry once that I felt a ball of fire rise right where my sternum was and then it vanished. It was inside my body and it felt like I was limitless but I calmed down and it went away.
So my question is what am I capable of? I appreciate your answers and hopefully I can learn something from all of you. Thanks