Greetings. I realize that it has been a very long time since I've submitted anything, but life has a way of taking up your time. I've been working on my meditation, and my rather earthy and trusted friend has charmed a bracelet for me that I wear everyday without fail. These two combined have helped me control my empathic abilities and I can now almost always determine my emotions from someone else's.I realize that it'll take way more time then has passed before I master this, but it's coming along.
As for the electricity, I've taken some of your advice and tried to calm myself. After much experimentation, I've come to find that intense emotions from me can cause lights to flicker and my computer to shut off or restart. But, I've discovered, what I believe to be, a new power. Another, close friend of mine helped me with this. It started when I wasn't feeling very well, and my head was aching something fierce. Well, I told him and he asked that I relax and close my eyes. So I did, and I know this sounds weird, but I retreated into my mind. I can't really see anything, but it's like a dark room. There's a door, but I always keep it closed and locked. In my mind, the door started to open and I instinctively forced it closed. When I came to, or 'woke' from my mind, my friend was rather frustrated and said, "Don't block me like that, please. This is hard enough..." and I was surprised to find that it was him who was trying to get in.
I asked him to please stay out of my mind and he agreed only if I would allow him to try something else. So I agreed to that and he placed his hands, or what felt like hands (he wasn't in the same house as me, we were talking on the phone) on my temples and then a warm, comforting feeling throughout my body, and my headache was gone. I thanked him and that was that.
Then, a few days later, I was having some problems with communicating with (and I hate using this term, but) my 'spirit guide'. My friend asked if he could go into my mind and help. When I finally gave him permission, I retreated again. This time, though, when the door started to open, I helped. It was really hard to pull it open for some reason, but it opened eventually. On the other side (which I had never seen before) there was nothing but a bright, white light. And I saw the silhouette of a man standing on the other side of the door. He was surrounded by this thin, bluish light that reached out and encompassed me in warmth. Then, for some odd reason, the door slammed shut and locked on its own.
My friend suffered from severe head and body aches for a few days after this and I just wanted to know if maybe I hurt him somehow. I know he was just trying to help me, and I agreed to letting him in my mind, but why did my mind act on its own? Any thoughts would be welcome. Thank you.