Greetings everyone. I am new on this site and thought it would be a good idea to tell about this odd ability I seem to have, but can't really classify. I'm not sure if I am an empath or something else, but everything in this story is true and as accurate as I can recall.
I find it hard to be in crowds of people. My mother and every other adult in my life says it's because I have anxiety issues, but the doctors cannot really clarify that and it isn't as if I have panic attacks in crowds. It is just that I am uncomfortable and get extremely moody. Every person that I know thinks I'm a freak because I can so accurately tell them what they are feeling and thinking (this is of course based on their feelings). And when I am in a crowd of people, I start having these severe mood swings, one minute calm, the next angry, and even the next depressed. It sometimes makes it hard to go to school and I was just hoping that maybe somebody has some advice on how to control this...
I heard once that psychics tend to have an affinity with animals. Well, I spent the first seven years of my life in my grandma's house, which always had three dogs and four cats at any one time. It was like a zoo, and still is. Even now, I own a cat, and we share this bond that I can actually perceive, not just feel. All the people I meet who have pets seem astounded that I can connect so easily with their animals and then they start treating me like some kind of leper.
The most telling incident happened at the beginning of this school year, September to be exact. It was towards the end of the day, and I was sitting at the lunch table with a bunch of people I know, but they aren't really comfortable around me. I was just sitting there, minding my own business, not really caring what was going on and then I started to feel this unimaginable pain in the region of my heart. I felt so sad and I wanted to cry. I didn't know what had brought it on until, one of the guys I know, Jordan, showed up and sat on the floor looking like somebody had just been murdered in front of him. I sat down next to him, wanting to comfort him, and asked what was wrong. He just kept staring ahead and then, in this really strained voice said, "One of my best friends killed himself last night..." and then he stood and walked away.
This really bothered me, not only because of his sorrow, which I seemed to be sharing, but because I had had this dream last night of my friend Cheyenne, who is away at boarding school, calling me, weeping and telling me that one of her friends had committed suicide. After school that day, Cheyenne called and, crying, told me that one of her friends had committed suicide.
Since I didn't even know this person, I couldn't understand why I would have connected with this. I'd never met the guy and I felt this utter desolation in my dream the night he'd killed himself. I don't understand! Am I an empath? Do I have precognitive powers? I don't know for sure, and though I seem to be able to hang around three or four people at a time if I'm wearing the charm my aunt gave me, I still can't block these waves of feelings that seem to be drawn to me.
Any advice would be welcome. Thanks.