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This is the first time I've told anyone other than my best friend about any of this, so if it's jumbled, please forgive me.

I was born to a wiccan family. I was born in Germany, and my father's mother didn't really approve of my birth. So my father decided it was best to move. We came to settle in West Virginia. Well, my father's mom was into some bad things and would harass me as a child, through astral projection. You may ask how I know this and to be honest it's the only way its plausible.

When we left Germany, my grandmother stayed there, and I was only 2 years old. So, when I described what I thought was a ghost to my father 3 years later, he found a picture, and I confirmed that was the woman I saw. He called her and threatened her and it stopped.

Now that that is out of the way, I need to tell more on my "condition ". Ever since I was a kid, probably around 8 years old, I noticed myself saying to my parents "I had a dream this would happen " or "I think I did this before. " my dad would just tell me, it's special, to be able to do that. My mom ignored it. I noticed when I was in school, I was really "sad, " and didn't know why and I could walk into the house, and I would become mad or depressed and not know, that while I was in school, that my parents had had arguments.

I became enamored in Wicca, when I got into high school, and talked to my dad about it. He told me that "everyone has special abilities, just some of us ignore them." And that "since your Grandpas mom was a full blooded Cherokee Indian and your grandma's line was always wiccan, it's more prominent in you " and I tried more to develop my "powers "

Now, it's current day. I went through three suicide attempts, lost my fiancé, and I'm going through bouts of depression that are so bad, I feel like I'm going insane. I feel like I absorb or pick up and become the emotions of the area I'm in. I don't know if that makes sense but to me it does. I can he honest that for a while I was addicted to alcohol and drugs, as I became a practicing satanist (I no longer practice, drink or partake in any drugs) but now that I'm clean, things are getting bad for me. I'm dreaming of things that do come true, but usually they're very bad things (deaths, accidents, injuries) and I'm becoming depressed again, (severely I may add) because I deal with many people a day. (Because of my job and my gym routine)

Is there anything that I can do to stop it, or am I crazy? I don't want to "hone it " as my father told me, because I feel that it's ruining my life. What can I do?

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ReikimasterMystic (14 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-08-24)
You are not crazy you have gifts and as many other lightworkers I am friends with a family linage some gifts are passed down. DEPRESSiON is anger turned inward. A lot of what you described about you was my story. You me many of us are sensitive, empathic souls. Just remember all you have been through all your pains, losses, attempts to not live, after you get down to the 100 honest true you will realize all your painful situations happened to you so you can clearly see pain in those who you will help. How could you possibly understand how perfect child of God beaming so bright light unless like me too walked lived in darkness. Trust you, keep asking questions, read as much as possible but most important learn to have a proactive (positive) mind vs reactive (negative) mindset in all your dealings. XOX
PathR (4 stories) (1247 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-07-13)
May I just recommend a book:
Spiritual cleansing: A hand book of psychic protection by Draja Mickaharic

He recommends using a regular egg in water under
The bed which helps drain excess neg energy.

You can also use a prepared Beryl stone in water
If you have problems sleeping.
The Beryl stone should be cleansed and prepared before use.
After use dispose of water in toilet and cleanse stone.

Good journey
Konrad_Curze (4 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-07-10)
Thank you both for all your help. It feels nice to know that someone actually understands what I'm going through and cares enough to help. Blessed be, both of you
PathR (4 stories) (1247 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-07-09)
From your story!
It sounds as if your Energy body was affected as a child.
Strangly in your story there is nothing of your mother or father using Wicca to create a seal of
Protection.
In the astral realm, thought forms are real.
And it seems you have been wounded.

Some of this reflects in personal relationships.
And this reflect the Macro-astral plane
Micro-our physical reality.

There are a few things one can do.
But since much time has passed it may be wise to
Get professional help until you are at a point that
Life shows you that you are a spiritual being.

Going to a spiritual healer, even a Reiki healer can help.

I would also use some spiritual baths with positive affirmations: such as you have a sound and peaceful mind.

Another idea is to do the LBR:
Www.kheper.net/topics/Hermeticism/LBR.htm

Any methodical method that makes a stand against
Negative energy which has been harrasing you.
By making a continuous stand even though it may take
Months, will eventually bring results.

Also by placing water under the bed, or walking over
Water is a method to stop a Negative energy from
Pursuing you.

In part if a situation has continued for years.
The human mind is conditioned to accept this as a way of life. Eventually we wish to escape. And drugs, alcohol, anything promising power sounds like a path
To follow in the hopes of bring a change.

With this in mind, there is no magic wand to take it
All away. But diligence and importunity
Will help.

Looking for methods to assist you with your Empathetic
Abilities. Such as Shielding, meditating, holding positive thoughts, and actions.

Also eating,sleeping, utilizing vitamins can help
With replenishing what your body has lost during the
Years.
IslVoter (257 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-07-09)
Konrad,

It becomes a bad cycle when we are in a negative state because those emotions "block the light"--making it more difficult for us to feel those positive emotions and energy that guides can give us.

Create in your mind a picture of what you would like your life to be. Be realistic, but think about this life in as much detail as you can muster. Think about it often.

And then, be open to the small signs of connection. It could be anything--pennies, feathers, just a feeling. It does sound like you are some kind of sensitive, which will make distinguishing your own emotions that much more difficult.

But if you envision a life where you can control when or how you feel the emotions of places or other people, in some way, with enough repetition, it will begin to happen. It will be subtle, but changes will happen.

It's a hard thing, but it is possible to work out of the low states. And focusing on the good things, being grateful when they do happen, "seeing" the life you want--are all ways of attracting to you what you want. It's the old Law of Attraction--where you put your attention is what you attract to yourself.

Wishing you peace and happiness.

Lora
Konrad_Curze (4 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-07-09)
Lora, I am honestly not sure if what I've seen or sensed is my guide. Sometimes when things get so bad I'm alone and broken, I feel a presence and it feels as if it holds me and rocks me.
I do recall sitting in my room and being in such a state of depression, and looking into my television screen (it was off) and seeing a reflection of what I swore was a woman. I reached back and turned my hand, while watching the reflection, and as it touched my palm, I felt a jolt of what I can only describe as pure emotion or energy. I feel as if she watches me, but I haven't seen or felt it in a long time and that has only made things worse because I feel so alone.
IslVoter (257 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-06-22)
Konrad,

What have you done to try to know your guide? Have you just not sensed one?

Isle - Lora
Konrad_Curze (4 stories) (8 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-06-19)
I honestly appreciate the input, Aisatsana. I've never told people about any of this except my friend Zach. He's been there for me, but when I fan feel him become emotionally drained from him worrying, I just quit telling him. I don't really tell my father anymore, because he keeps telling me, to get better at it, because of tradition. I don't have any spirit guides, and I don't have any real knowledge, so when I start dabbling in things, they usually go from bad to worse, you know? But thank you. I will read Psalms and hope that it can help. Yet again, thank you.:) I appreciate it.
Aisatsana (7 stories) (24 posts)
 
8 years ago (2012-06-18)
It sounds like what you're looking for is something good in all of this, a way out, something that will be that light in the darkness.

I'm not trying to convert you or anything, but something that helped me when I felt overwhelmed as a psychic growing up was reaching out, on my own, to God. I know it sounds crazy to most people, but just grab a bible and flip to Psalms. And then read.

While you're doing this, don't just read the words, say the words with your heart and soul. Cry those tears out that you held back and simply beg for that all eternal love that everyone brags about.

Get those feelings out and truly ask for his help. You'd be surprised at the outcome.

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