I usually didn't have much troubles with my empathy about two years ago. I got along fine after I learned how to block out passing strangers emotions, both positive and negative, but as time went on, my range became wider and I could feel what an entire room was going through, all their cycles of thought mixed with whatever they were latching onto. To say the least it was troublesome to know what people were going to say or ask beforehand.
Within the last year my range has gone up again, and I can feel what only certain people are feeling from distance. It's not like I can feel absolutely everything within an x amount of mile radius, but I do feel things from far away. It's just those I've forged bonds with and who I speak with over the internet. I met someone last year that I had a very good connection with, we used to speak to each other almost every day until suddenly he stopped. He became estranged towards me after a few months and I still felt that the bond between us was still pretty strong. It took a few cloudy months to sort what was mine and what was his, and now that I'm clearer minded, I know that I'm picking up on a lot of his emotions.
For instance, tonight I know I'm in a good mood because of how I interact with others, then when I'm alone, it's like there's a clot of rage stuck in the pit of my stomach for absolutely no reason at all. It's almost like a signature how I tell the difference between the people I'm bonded with... Like a flavour or maybe different wavelengths of colour.
I do not wish to be bonded with this person anymore because of the way things are between us and I do not like knowing what kind of mood he's in and when. If there are empaths out there who could help, I'd very much appreciate. Same goes with telepathy, having very much the same trouble with sending and receiving. Kind of wish I could block it all out, but that would require being numbed from my own spirit, and that would be the death of me.
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