In the middle of last year, I struck out to improve my life. One of the things on the list was improving the situation at work. This eventually became a battle to keep my job, but luckily a new manager was hired who let me work in his department.
I was feeling pretty blissed-out by being able to keep my job, since the circumstances mimicked closely a dream I had. The dream was that I would lose my reputation at work, but by talking to a big shot at work everything would work out. In the dream it ended with a meeting with someone who at the time I thought was a spirit guide. This guide was incredibly proud of my tenacity in making the situation work for me. He also sent me a deep feeling of love and acceptance that was incredibly powerful. Hence when things were going bad at work, I remembered the dream and kept telling myself it would work out.
Flash forward to more recently. I have been a lot more happy in my work and domestic lives. The situation with the new manager who I shall call Jason was going really well. The type of work I do doesn't require that we see each other every day, only every week for a progress report. I would get really freaked out before going, but when these meetings were over I was always in a good state of mind.
Then one day after a meeting I was basking in my good state of mind and using the energy to daydream about a positive future for myself. These daydreams included Jason being there, offering advice, getting me good promotions and the like. I felt very close to him, so I also imagined personal situations that he would be there for, like giving me advice on career and family and being proud of me when I did get married and had children.
The next day I noticed that my chakras were highly energized, especially my solar plexus chakra. I was at first happy with these so-thought signs of my increasing evolution, but it took only a couple of days to get tired of the distraction of having your chakras buzzing about. So I tried to tone it down with some meditation/visualization to see what was going on. Immediately I get visions of Jason and the visions turned very sexual. I tried to shut down my chakras, but they would pop open again at any thought of Jason. Needless to say, I wasn't getting much work done for him at the time.
I consulted my dreams, and an actual spirit guide told me I had to move the energy into my heart. But in consulting my dreams, I found that the so-called spirit guide from the work related dream reappeared in another dream, also related to work, where he WAS my new boss.
So that's where I am now. My energy system is, for a lack of a better term, totally whacked out. I am having explicit images of my new boss who is twice my age and married with kids. I am getting some control of my energy now. But my grip on reality is on the rocks. I have had similar energetics connections to people, but these previous ones were limited to people I was attracted to, and were much less intense.
What else can I do to calm my energy down? I am worried that this underlying energetic tension may implode my work relationship with Jason.