I asked some stuff before, and since then I've noticed some newer things that have recently developed and It's honestly making me feel like I might be going insane or just being dumb.
A while back I was sleeping over at my boyfriends, I passed out a little early due to being extremely tired. Anyway I remember seeing his grandpa coming home late that night and I vividly remember seeing him walk up the drive way. So naturally I thought I was just sleep walking because I used to do that a lot when I was younger. When I asked my boyfriend about it he confirmed that he did indeed get home late, but that I was definitely asleep in bed (he was up playing video games and I was sleeping next to him.) I don't suppose that he just didn't notice his droggy girlfriend getting out of bed and walking out his door. Lately I keep having this feeling like I've been sleepwalking, but everyone is almost positive I've been in bed all night. Like I'm walking around the house. But it ONLY happens at his house. Also, there's been a few times I've been woken up at 3:33 am in the morning, naturally I've seen enough horror movies for this to freak myself out so I force myself back to bed. Another thing is about 1-2 weeks ago my mom and I entered an antique shop in a small city. Almost instantly I could just feel the energy buzzing off of it. Nearly to the point I felt like I was suffocating. I couldn't wait to get out of it. But, I felt like I could see the history of items I touched. Like something that was "imprinted" I think is the right word? I sort of ignored it and went on. But, just the other day I went on a hike at a historic railroad trail. It happened again. I could touch the wall or focus on an are again and it was like I could see the history going on before me. I could see the train coming towards us, the wagons, the water (which would have been much higher) and I could /feel/ it too. I told my boyfriend and he only said I just have an extremely creative imagination that I can't control. I won't lie that only slightly made me mad, and felt a little insane so I don't exactly want to share things like this with him.
It's weird, because when new things show up, old things go away. No dreams, I can't feel people's emotions as easy, etc. And everything just happens at random times it's not like I can't ever control it.
Two more things.
I can't meditate. Ever. When I try I usually end up "imagining" /something/ is there and I freak out and open my eyes again. Is there any way around that? I honestly get too scared to try and go to a deeper place in my mind, because if I get even close something snaps me back into reality.
Last thing. No one ever answered this.
When I was very little, I told my mother that I ripped out another child and got in her belly because I wanted to be born. Or something along those lines. Does that mean anything? Or could it have anything to do with what goes on now? My mom said it was extremely odd that I said that considering sometime inter her pregnancy something happened and they were almost certain she had misscarried.
I dunno, even telling me I'm losing my mind would settle my nerves a little. Thanks in advance!