For as long as I can remember I've had "tactile hallucinations", I was always distracted in school by the sensation of something soft and light rubbing my face, even now as I type I can feel it. I was always jumpy, thinking someone was behind me because I felt a hand on my shoulder, thinking someone poked my back when nothing was there. And all of this can be explained by tactile hallucinations, I took medication, or even just ignored it. But there's always been this voice in the back of my head "What if it's not your mind playing tricks on you?" so one night, I tested it. Narrating something in my head, like I was speaking to someone or something, I requested this "being" this "energy" to increase the pressure of which I felt it. To touch my shoulder, to rub my back. I tested it a thousand different ways, I tried listening for it, telling it "Say my name into my ear, keep saying my name" and I felt sensations around my ear, it would get hot, and I felt something tickle it, then very faintly I would hear my name said, over and over and over again... Or did I? Maybe it was just my imagination, it was too soft to really judge.
Whatever I request it to do, it does. Maybe not exactly how I'd like it to be done, but the request is typically followed through. I've even asked it to pinch me, and I've felt a little pinprick.
I'm half way between "ignore it it's nothing" and "this could actually be an energy of sorts/a demon/something/someone"
It always seems strongest at night, when I'm laying in bed, relaxing. I'll sometimes ask it to "surprise me" at which it'll do something different, one time I felt it all behind me... Like it was... Spooning with me?
I'm not religious, not spiritual, not really atheist.
I don't fully believe in psychology, anymore.
I keep waiting for it to prove itself as something real, and even if it does, I don't know if I'll believe it. I need to know for sure, without a doubt what's happening.
Over-active imagination? Maybe.
Tactile hallucinations? Maybe.
Something else...? I don't know.
I really don't know, and it's driving me nuts.
I thought maybe 'it' was an incubus, but this happens whether or not I'm awake or sleeping, and yes, it come into my dreams as well. It manifests in my sleep paralysis.
I'm not looking for any "Pray to god" type of answers, so please kindly avoid those, I'm just looking for advice? I suppose, maybe a way I could talk to 'it'-if 'it' is something. Man, I don't even know.