First, I'd like to express how honest I am being with this. This is not a made-up fantasy of mine, or some kind of game. I am explaining to you ACTUAL events that have happened to me, actual events that I have no explanation for, and I would like some feedback from you if you're willing to have an open mind and a truthful heart. I've read some other articles about psychic visions on this site and elsewhere, and some people's stories have come sort of close to describing what I've seen, although others seem completely out of this world, and even I find them hard to believe. Anyways, I thought I'd give it a shot and share my story with you if not just to get the dang thing off my chest and see what other people have to say about it.
I'll start at the beginning.
Late last year while I was still living in San Francisco, I was lying on the rooftop of my building looking up at the sun and enjoying its rays peacefully when all of the sudden I had the urge to say out loud "El"... I then immediately looked over a bit (guided to look maybe?) and noticed a giant right-angle shape of the letter L in the sky next to the sun.
That's not all...
A month later I was staying at my mom's house when I began having a sort of panic attack. I felt like I was going to die. My heart was racing and I was feeling like my mind was going to overload and I was going to shut down for good or something. I tried my hardest to stay conscious, then out of nowhere I had a vision come across my mind. It was really right in my eyesight, clear as day. I don't remember at this time whether my eyes were shut or not because all of the sudden all I saw was a boy maybe 12 or 13 years old with black hair and white clothes on standing next to another boy (or girl, I can't really remember) with blonde hair, and other people around too, though I didn't get a good look at them. They were all staring left toward an old man with a white beard and also white clothes on (I know this sounds like a description of God, and I'm not saying it's not. I'm just explaining what I saw, and I sort of hope that it was God, because that means he's real and I saw him). Anyways, beyond them was no wall or anything but white radiant bolts of light sort of motioning across blackness. That's all I saw. It was sort of a still life photo, nobody was moving, except that I saw the old man look over at me in his periphery with a look I can't describe, maybe a coy look, somewhat smiling. He was basically in my periphery as well. I was staring straight ahead at this black-haired boy and I don't know him, although for some reason I had the notion of identifying him as Adam, I don't know why, I just remember thinking that's Adam.
After that my mind began to explode with questions and curiosities. I had never had a vision like that before, nor have I ever experienced anything so spiritual. It was also the only such panic attack I've had and it scared me, though, the vision changed everything. My whole outlook on life has changed, and I'm dying to find out more about this. I believe I've seen into Heaven, the planet Krypton, or God-knows-what.
At this point I can't remember which of the next two events happened first, but they both happened near each other and this is when I began thinking "Omg, I am having actual visions".
A few weeks after seeing my first vision, I had a dream. Now, I know dreams are dreams and people have many wild ones, but this one stands out to me because it was so vivid and mystical, and I have to describe it to you because I feel it must coincide with everything else. In my dream I was in a living room with brown faux-wood wall paneling kind of like my own living room, and a couch, and there was this beautiful music like ancient Egyptian or Indian music, it was loud and clear music, and a woman, whom I couldn't see, said to me "Malicious intent with the cookie dough in the kitchen", and that's all she said. I remember bowing and backing up as I was staring at an empty seat on the couch and I said to whomever was next to me "That's the priestess of something or other" (I can't remember exactly what I said). That was the whole dream. "Malicious intent with the cookie dough in the kitchen". It was so clear and vivid that it made me afraid of eating anything in the kitchen.
That was that, but in another incident close to that one, I was lying on my mom's couch with my eyes closed, although I wasn't sleeping, when suddenly I had a vision come across my eyesight. Now this time I know my eyes were closed and I began to see something in front of me as if I had them opened. It's like when you rub your eyes too much or stand up too quickly and your vision goes dark for a second until it lights up again, that's what I saw when the vision began. I saw a guy around my age with black hair and a T-shirt and shorts sitting on the grass looking somewhat in my direction (his gaze was above and behind me), behind him was another guy, a little younger, with light hair sitting with his back against his and facing away. The guy with black hair was smiling at me and that's all I saw, but it was so clear and real. I opened my eyes and at that point I realized that my eyes weren't already open.
That's not the last I've seen of this guy, either.
Jumping ahead to earlier this year, one of my very last visions was of the same black-haired guy sitting on a couch with a coffee table in front of him looking at me with the biggest smile on his face. This time when the vision began and I saw the guy, I felt a breeze on my face.
Other visions I've had are equally as vivid. This one is the worst and scariest I've ever seen. Earlier this year when I had already moved to Kansas I was lying in bed ready to go to sleep, although far from falling asleep, I had my eyes closed and a vision came upon me the same way the others did, with the scene showing up out of darkness. In the scene I saw myself lying on the side of some road in the woods unconscious with two guys standing up next to me. The men looked like rednecks. It was again another still life, so there was no movement, but it scared me because it seemed like I was looking at myself dead on the ground with two men dragging me somewhere or something.
I'm frightened to think that's a premonition. But we have no woods in Kansas, so I don't know.
Anyway, apart from those visions, I've had several others, though not since May. I'm actually very disappointed that I'm not seeing anything anymore, and I've been praying to God to help me understand why I've seen what I've seen and what it all means.
It gets weirder after that, and at this point I'm not sure if I should continue, but if you have an open mind and trust me that I'm not making this up, just merely trying to describe what I saw in the best words I can, then you might find this interesting.
Around New Year as me and my brothers were driving to Kansas, I was in the backseat of the car nearly falling asleep when I saw a face, or two faces, appear in front of me, clear as day, and my eyes were open, I know this because I could see the outside of the window behind them. It was one face, but on the left side looked like the face of an Egyptian pharaoh and on the right side was the face of the old man with a white beard. They were both looking at me and the pharaoh said something in a distinctive voice that said "this one" or something to that effect, I really can't remember what he said exactly and it bugs me, but after that a white arm that I identify with the old bearded man popped out from the edge and pointed at something and I heard "I don't like this". Or "not that" or something. This was the first time I saw anything Egyptian, and I call these two Deus and Satan, don't ask me why, it's just what I call them when I'm thinking of them, and I'm not even sure the pharaoh is evil or anything.
Later on after getting to Kansas, but before seeing some other visions I have to tell you about, I had a random and very quick vision of an Egyptian pharaoh's head in front of me, then a snake came out of my head, went up like a periscope and other images flashed in front of me before it all ended.
That's not all.
Later on I began seeing what I can only describe as a sun-being (I told you it gets weird, but bare with me, I am truly trying to describe everything I can, and this is what I saw). The first time I saw him, I was lying in my bed ready to go to sleep and I saw this figure appear in my eyesight, I thought to myself "This is Sammy". He was spherical and almost cartoon-like (I HATE describing it this way, but this is exactly what I saw and there are no better words to describe it). He had one eye and was pretty cute. He was spinning around talking to himself not even noticing me, the background was black and I understood him as being in space (...cartoon space? I don't know, it only gets weirder and weirder). Anyways, he began speaking to somebody whom he called Creation Spirit. That's all I heard him saying, was "Creation Spirit, Creation Spirit... Something something something...". Then my memory starts to get fuzzy from there, but I remember that he started having a fit and crying. He was guided to look up out of somewhere, his eye got all big and he screamed, then a giant hand reached over and put a halo on his head and he calmed down.
After that, I saw him several more times (I've seen him the most. I associate him with the boy I called Adam whom I've only seen once and the other older guy with black hair whom I've seen twice or three times).
Another time I saw Sammy he was floating in the vision of my right eye. This time I was taking a nap on my couch here in Kansas and I hadn't quite fallen asleep when he appeared. This vision was like other visions that I've had in that I knew what was going on, but I was not 100% in control of my thoughts or actions. I noticed Sammy all of the sudden in my right eye (yes, only my right eye, which I thought was curious as well). He screamed while looking at something, like a deathly scream that would have you running over to help. Then I noticed a dark black arm do something in the corner of my right eye, it seemed demonic. Soon after that I lost partial vision in my right eye.
I've also seen Sammy appear suddenly in my vision looking upwards and behind me smiling so beautifully it touched my heart. He was being led somewhere by a light.
I've seen him on fire angrily panicking looking at another spirit-being that was black with a long tail, long arms, and a head that ended in a tall flat-top hat like an Egyptian would wear. This spirit seemed like he was in pain from Sammy's panic, and for some reason I associated this spirit as me.
I don't know why I think certain things about my visions, like calling the boy Adam, or the two faces Deus and Satan. I just have thoughts or "understandings" come to my mind as the visions are happening. I have a few theories about what I've seen, but I'm reluctant to discuss anything any further, and over all, I'm still completely lost as to what it all means, or what exactly is going on.
Early on, somewhere around the time I was first seeing Sammy, I also saw visions of people doing odd things. I saw a couple my age sitting on the edge of a bed saying something to me. The woman asked something about this dark figure that was in front of her, something was said back to her, and she proceeded to climb into the thing, whatever it was. It registered in my mind as some kind of portal or something, but it was black and I was simultaneously thinking to myself don't go in there.
I also had a vision where I was moving up close to a guy who was quickly trying to get into his house but couldn't and looked over at me and fainted.
Seriously these visions are exceptional because they look cartoon-y at first until my eyes adjust, as you might say (even though they're not even open), and they become clearer.
I had one vision that I cherish only because it happened after not having a vision for a long time and it reaffirmed to me that I was indeed having visions. It was a simple and quick vision of a middle-aged man getting up off a couch and heading somewhere.
None of these people I know, and these specific visions I have no explanation for.
The last instance I'll tell you about is a very important one and quite strange because it is unlike anything else I've seen.
This happened towards the very beginning when I had just gotten to Kansas. This was my longest vision and it really set off everything else that I saw from that point on. I was lying on my couch in the living room with my eyes closed and all of the sudden I began seeing a woman talking to me (I call her the Priestess, thinking that she may be the same woman from my dream). I have not the slightest idea what she was saying but she was calling out to me. The vision was very detailed. She had a red dress on similar to one you'd see an Arab belly dancer or somebody wear, and she was standing in some sort of door way that looked out into some lush garden area. Her body and her movements were fuzzy and, like I said before, cartoon-y until my eyes came into focus. She was saying something and then began to struggle with two of these green demon things that came up to her and grabbed her each by an arm. On a separate incidence, I saw these same green demon things sitting at a table eating food and laughing. I got scared for the Priestess, asked her something in my mind to the effect of "who are they?" and I heard back "we have ways to fight them off". I saw this vision for an extended period of time, and it transitioned into an underworld looking place (I know I'm horribly describing this, but this is truly how it went). Down there I saw a man whom I was told in my head was an ex-lover of mine. He had long black hair that went to his shoulders and was just smiling at me, and behind him I saw a cage with hundreds of people inside and their arms moving around. After that I saw a woman with a black bob haircut sitting on a couch and a dinosaur looking creature next to her, she was talking to somebody else out of my sight and suddenly the dinosaur bit her head off...
Now, I'm going to tell you that this is the weirdest part of my story, and I'm afraid of what I've seen, but for the sake of telling you a complete history, I must describe this to you...
After that I started seeing miserable people disfigured and misshapen all over the place. At one point an arm reached out at this one woman down there and poked her with its finger and she began to expand and became this hideous fat creature. She was miserable. I saw others too, and I had no idea what to think of it. I saw people in cages, and I even saw one scene where there were dead bodies on some island in a pool of water with someone in the water swimming over to it. I don't know if I was looking into hell or what, but there were miserable people everywhere being punished for something, and then again there were other people that seemed like they lived down there. I saw one woman from the back who was reaching into a dinosaur's mouth as though she were cleaning its teeth. I must have been bothering her or something because she called my name as if to get me to stop doing whatever I was doing. After that I began to pull out, and a strange looking man with black clothes closed a door and told me not to go in there, or not to look. I transitioned back to the guy that I heard was an ex-lover of mine (although, his face didn't seem at all familiar, not even like from another life or anything), and for some reason I had the urge to poke him myself and make him expand, but nothing happened, I couldn't. I don't know why I wanted to, I just did.
Separately from that incident, but related, I saw this demon like creature that was standing over this beautiful blonde woman who was unconscious on a table. He noticed I was there and began to kiss her feet frantically as if to get a one last kick out of her before he disappears. I thought it was sick and was wondering if God (or Creation Spirit as I've been calling him now) has been showing me all this to warn me about what really exists out there.
Since having all these visions, I've changed completely my attitude toward life. I'm a 100% believer in God now after being an atheist for such a long time. I found Buddhism quite early on in life, but I didn't sincerely accept the idea of a one true God and divine mysticism until just this year (of course, who wouldn't after having such visions?). I'm privately obsessed with getting back into contact with these spirits, especially Sammy, the Priestess, and the guy with black hair whom I've become very fond of. Except, I haven't had any visions AT ALL since May, and I'm worried something happened. I was having psychic experiences for about 7 months and then all of the sudden after losing part of my eyesight in my right eye, I see nothing.
I'm going to cut this story short here and see what responses I get.
Again, I am being totally honest, and I really request that somebody with a truthful heart and a credible soul read this and get back to me.
P.S. I've noticed how easy it is for me to act normal after having such experiences, I haven't told ANYBODY except with this story, and I wonder who else around me has had similar experiences but just isn't saying anything. How do you possibly get that kind of information out of somebody without seeming completely insane?